TheRedViper
January 22nd, 2014, 09:27 AM
Over the past year I'd become really close friends with a girl at my school. We were pretty much always together at school, often by ourselves just talking, and we also hung out a bit after school. At first I felt weird and uncomfortable because she is absolutely gorgeous and popular, and I'm kind of shy and quiet, but somehow we mixed. She eventually became a closer friend to me than my other friends, who I'd been friends with for years. She told me everything about her life (even really graphic stuff about her sex life that I didn't really wanna know).
I asked her out one day, but she kind of said nothing, which I took for a no, and I felt really depressed cause I thought I'd ruined our friendship, but she later told me when she was really drunk and high at a party that she only said no cause I was too good for her and she was too damaged.
We kept being great friends all the way up until the end of the year, when suddenly for no reason she just got really distant and quiet with me. She wouldn't speak much, and when she did everything was forced and cold. She started hanging around with her old friends again, who she often said she hated, and then the year ended. She said she probably wasn't coming back next year, and so I felt we ended the year on a very bad note.
Throughout the holidays we didn't make contact at all, which was strange, since she used to text me at all hours, even 2am. I got really depressed because I thought she hated me and didn't want to see me again, and I pretty much just brooded and acted really sad and depressed for ages, since she was the only really great thing about my life. I loved all the times we were together as friends, just talking and joking and hanging around. I thought that was all ended, and I'd never see her again, since she wasn't coming back.
Today, two months or so after we last saw each other, I got in contact with her via Facebook and asked if she wanted to catch up sometime. I was really nervous, because I thought she'd hate me for some reason, but she seemed happy and said yes, and we saw each other for a few hours today and we got back to how we used to be months ago, although I still felt sad because I know she won't be coming back to my school, and so I won't really have a friend that's a girl. I mean, I have a couple, but none that were as special to me as she was. Now I'll just have to go back to talking to these guys I used to hang out with who call my friend a slut and talk about her like they think they know her, but they don't, only I truly knew her, and one of her other friends, but I never talk to her nor like her.
For most of year 9 I was in this kind of slump where I was always bored and lifeless at school, because nothing interesting happened, and I felt I was wasting my time. But then when she moved into my class that changed, and she pretty much became the reason I wanted to go to school; so I could see her and we could talk for ages. I loved having a close friend that was a girl (a beautiful, popular one at that) that I felt comfortable around and we trusted each other and got along great. She got a new phone not long ago, and she came over so I could help her set it up properly. I can at least keep in contact with her now, even if we don't go to the same school, since she is going to do TAFE, but it just won't be the same. I keep telling myself to move on, but she was really special and close to me, and I think she felt the same way, so it's really hard to. I guess it's kind of bittersweet. We kind of ended on a good note, but I might not see her much at all anymore, since she is very popular and has a lot of other friends, although she still made time for me today at least. I don't know really, I've never had a friend like her before, and doubt I will again.
I asked her out one day, but she kind of said nothing, which I took for a no, and I felt really depressed cause I thought I'd ruined our friendship, but she later told me when she was really drunk and high at a party that she only said no cause I was too good for her and she was too damaged.
We kept being great friends all the way up until the end of the year, when suddenly for no reason she just got really distant and quiet with me. She wouldn't speak much, and when she did everything was forced and cold. She started hanging around with her old friends again, who she often said she hated, and then the year ended. She said she probably wasn't coming back next year, and so I felt we ended the year on a very bad note.
Throughout the holidays we didn't make contact at all, which was strange, since she used to text me at all hours, even 2am. I got really depressed because I thought she hated me and didn't want to see me again, and I pretty much just brooded and acted really sad and depressed for ages, since she was the only really great thing about my life. I loved all the times we were together as friends, just talking and joking and hanging around. I thought that was all ended, and I'd never see her again, since she wasn't coming back.
Today, two months or so after we last saw each other, I got in contact with her via Facebook and asked if she wanted to catch up sometime. I was really nervous, because I thought she'd hate me for some reason, but she seemed happy and said yes, and we saw each other for a few hours today and we got back to how we used to be months ago, although I still felt sad because I know she won't be coming back to my school, and so I won't really have a friend that's a girl. I mean, I have a couple, but none that were as special to me as she was. Now I'll just have to go back to talking to these guys I used to hang out with who call my friend a slut and talk about her like they think they know her, but they don't, only I truly knew her, and one of her other friends, but I never talk to her nor like her.
For most of year 9 I was in this kind of slump where I was always bored and lifeless at school, because nothing interesting happened, and I felt I was wasting my time. But then when she moved into my class that changed, and she pretty much became the reason I wanted to go to school; so I could see her and we could talk for ages. I loved having a close friend that was a girl (a beautiful, popular one at that) that I felt comfortable around and we trusted each other and got along great. She got a new phone not long ago, and she came over so I could help her set it up properly. I can at least keep in contact with her now, even if we don't go to the same school, since she is going to do TAFE, but it just won't be the same. I keep telling myself to move on, but she was really special and close to me, and I think she felt the same way, so it's really hard to. I guess it's kind of bittersweet. We kind of ended on a good note, but I might not see her much at all anymore, since she is very popular and has a lot of other friends, although she still made time for me today at least. I don't know really, I've never had a friend like her before, and doubt I will again.