little_birdie
January 22nd, 2014, 05:16 AM
Hiya's (I'm new so I'm not sure how I'm supposed to start this)
Basically I have really servere social anxiety that can really mess with my ability to talk to people that I don't entirely trust and it really badly affected my last school year. I was skipping at least one day a week, didn't go to most of my English and Philosophy classes and only really had two friends. In the end, I didn't go to school for the last term, missed all of my end-of-year exams and spent a lot of my time having a full on break down on the kitchen floor (best place to have a break down because recovery chocolate is right there!)
I'm starting year 11 at the school of my dreams on Feb 3rd (a lot of you are American so basically in Australia we start the school year at the beginning of the year). It's a theatre school where I'll pretty much get to spend every day doing what I love. But I'm also scared out of my mind. I don't know anyone who's going to be there and on the enrollment day, there were a few other people there and they all looked so cool and very above my level of ability-to-make-friends-with. The two girls who were there were both tall and beautiful and I'm short and kinda dumpy.
I don't want a repeat of last year where I can't talk to anyone and spend all my time crying uncontrolably with chocolate so I was just wondering if anyone has any words of wisdom or something? And don't even try that 'just be yourself and say hi' stuff I can't walk down the street without my eyes glued to my feet how am I supposed to get them off the ground, pointed at somebodies face, while talking??
Sorry this is long have a lovely day (night?) :)
Basically I have really servere social anxiety that can really mess with my ability to talk to people that I don't entirely trust and it really badly affected my last school year. I was skipping at least one day a week, didn't go to most of my English and Philosophy classes and only really had two friends. In the end, I didn't go to school for the last term, missed all of my end-of-year exams and spent a lot of my time having a full on break down on the kitchen floor (best place to have a break down because recovery chocolate is right there!)
I'm starting year 11 at the school of my dreams on Feb 3rd (a lot of you are American so basically in Australia we start the school year at the beginning of the year). It's a theatre school where I'll pretty much get to spend every day doing what I love. But I'm also scared out of my mind. I don't know anyone who's going to be there and on the enrollment day, there were a few other people there and they all looked so cool and very above my level of ability-to-make-friends-with. The two girls who were there were both tall and beautiful and I'm short and kinda dumpy.
I don't want a repeat of last year where I can't talk to anyone and spend all my time crying uncontrolably with chocolate so I was just wondering if anyone has any words of wisdom or something? And don't even try that 'just be yourself and say hi' stuff I can't walk down the street without my eyes glued to my feet how am I supposed to get them off the ground, pointed at somebodies face, while talking??
Sorry this is long have a lovely day (night?) :)