WrthPanda
January 21st, 2014, 06:36 PM
Okey, have some questions or situations I hope you guys could help me out with. I might as well start with sorting out my thoughts, so you at least got to know what I'm talking about. You see, I've got two best friends. The first one, a guy I known practually all my life, and been best friends with since I was five, lets call him Friend A. The other one of my bf moved to our town some years ago,I think I was 12 years old at the time. I don't know what it was, but we linked completely from day one, and he also been my best friend the whole time, lets call him, uhm, unlikely creative, but lets call him friend B. We are all the same age, and turned 20 in the end of last year.
So I've always been kind of into friend A, more than just the friendly bff thing, and even thought I have fooled around with him (friend A), I have slowly started to give up on him. Not as best friend, but in the romantic way. Mostly because I know there's a chance for that he might never comes to terms with his own sexual orientation. As a closure I started to develope some feelings towards friend B, or at least that's what I first thought. I thought I developed this feeling towards friend B because he was my other best friend, but the more I dwell on it, the more I've come to realize that I think I developed the feeling towards friend B because we always had this connection, which I couldn't see as long as my mind was focused on friend A alone, if that makes any sense.
To sum it up, friend B always gives me complements, asks me if am okey, telling me how great I an, holding his arms around me, rubs my shoulder, cuddles, are a good listener, and make me feel good in general. And his the only guy friend I have, treathing me that way, so I guess that's the reason I am falling for me. He is so different, and aren't afraid to show me that he cares, even thought it might make him look gay.
For the complication is that we're all guys, and I do not know if he's gay, bi or even straight.
But as I've tried to figure him out these last weeks, an old memory got to me, which has bugged me a lot in the few days. On a sleepover, three years ago, I woke up in the middle of the night, to see that friend B jerked off my other friend (friend A) while he were sleeping. So naturally I pretended to still be sleeping, and pretend the other day like I had seen nothing. So what's bug me, I think friend B likes my other friend A more than a friend, and friend A does not seem to know that, which I know, because friend A and B has kind of drifted apart, or at least friend A told me he felt so. And I think my friend B are at least bi, I mean, come on, jerking your male friend off while he's sleeping?
But the other thing that's bug me, I never tolded friend A what friend B did to him, because I was/am afraid that it might break the friendship between the three of us.
So I guess my questions are:
1) What do you guys think about friend B, does I have a chance or not?
2) Should I tell friend A what happend at the sleepover, even though it is a long time ago?
And 3) Am I a bad person for "giving" up on friend A? I mean, seriously, we done almost everything, and then I 'mean' everything. We act like an old marriage couple, god damn it, but on the other side I am tired of waiting for him.
Ugh, I feel like tge worlds worst person right now, because I feel like someone of us, maybe all three of us, might or would get hurt (emotically) in the process
What should I do, what is right to do?
All help are so appriciated :)
Thanks for reading.
So I've always been kind of into friend A, more than just the friendly bff thing, and even thought I have fooled around with him (friend A), I have slowly started to give up on him. Not as best friend, but in the romantic way. Mostly because I know there's a chance for that he might never comes to terms with his own sexual orientation. As a closure I started to develope some feelings towards friend B, or at least that's what I first thought. I thought I developed this feeling towards friend B because he was my other best friend, but the more I dwell on it, the more I've come to realize that I think I developed the feeling towards friend B because we always had this connection, which I couldn't see as long as my mind was focused on friend A alone, if that makes any sense.
To sum it up, friend B always gives me complements, asks me if am okey, telling me how great I an, holding his arms around me, rubs my shoulder, cuddles, are a good listener, and make me feel good in general. And his the only guy friend I have, treathing me that way, so I guess that's the reason I am falling for me. He is so different, and aren't afraid to show me that he cares, even thought it might make him look gay.
For the complication is that we're all guys, and I do not know if he's gay, bi or even straight.
But as I've tried to figure him out these last weeks, an old memory got to me, which has bugged me a lot in the few days. On a sleepover, three years ago, I woke up in the middle of the night, to see that friend B jerked off my other friend (friend A) while he were sleeping. So naturally I pretended to still be sleeping, and pretend the other day like I had seen nothing. So what's bug me, I think friend B likes my other friend A more than a friend, and friend A does not seem to know that, which I know, because friend A and B has kind of drifted apart, or at least friend A told me he felt so. And I think my friend B are at least bi, I mean, come on, jerking your male friend off while he's sleeping?
But the other thing that's bug me, I never tolded friend A what friend B did to him, because I was/am afraid that it might break the friendship between the three of us.
So I guess my questions are:
1) What do you guys think about friend B, does I have a chance or not?
2) Should I tell friend A what happend at the sleepover, even though it is a long time ago?
And 3) Am I a bad person for "giving" up on friend A? I mean, seriously, we done almost everything, and then I 'mean' everything. We act like an old marriage couple, god damn it, but on the other side I am tired of waiting for him.
Ugh, I feel like tge worlds worst person right now, because I feel like someone of us, maybe all three of us, might or would get hurt (emotically) in the process
What should I do, what is right to do?
All help are so appriciated :)
Thanks for reading.