I dont even

[koolkidz]

This may be quite grammatically incorrect because I am crying whilst typing this.
A while back my grandmother passed away due to cancer.
I loved her so much and I still don't even know if this is reality or not.

The day I was told she passed away I got home from school and I thought I am going to phone her to see how she is doing... then I found out. I have not told anybody about this.

Another thing... this is what is killing me. In the weeks leading to her death I didn't really want to see her because she wasn't the person I knew. All the steroids and medications had changed her personality and look. I could tell she was in pain. She was pale and when I last saw her I kissed he on the cheek and I could see a tear in her eye. I am still really sad about this even though it happened in September. I need support. What do I do? Am I a horrible person?
Oh god as I am typing this I realise how much of an asshole I sound..

[The Trendy Wolf]

This may be quite grammatically incorrect because I am crying whilst typing this.
A while back my grandmother passed away due to cancer.
I loved her so much and I still don't even know if this is reality or not.

The day I was told she passed away I got home from school and I thought I am going to phone her to see how she is doing... then I found out. I have not told anybody about this.

Another thing... this is what is killing me. In the weeks leading to her death I didn't really want to see her because she wasn't the person I knew. All the steroids and medications had changed her personality and look. I could tell she was in pain. She was pale and when I last saw her I kissed he on the cheek and I could see a tear in her eye. I am still really sad about this even though it happened in September. I need support. What do I do? Am I a horrible person?
Oh god as I am typing this I realise how much of an asshole I sound..
Your grandmother sounds like she was a wonderful person, and she probably lived a great life as well, but everyone has to move on at some point.

You are certainly not a terrible person, and I know that is a fact. Depression is what's causing you to put the blame on yourself, but none of it is your fault. I know that you miss her deeply, but she wouldn't have wanted for you to mourn over her death.

You may want to consider talking with someone, perhaps your parents or friends, and just tell them how sad you feel about all of this. Talking with someone will likely relieve you of your grief, but other than that, there's nothing that you can really do besides move on and remember the fantastic person that your grandmother was, and still is. :D

[koolkidz]

Your grandmother sounds like she was a wonderful person, and she probably lived a great life as well, but everyone has to move on at some point.

You are certainly not a terrible person, and I know that is a fact. Depression is what's causing you to put the blame on yourself, but none of it is your fault. I know that you miss her deeply, but she wouldn't have wanted for you to mourn over her death.

You may want to consider talking with someone, perhaps your parents or friends, and just tell them how sad you feel about all of this. Talking with someone will likely relieve you of your grief, but other than that, there's nothing that you can really do besides move on and remember the fantastic person that your grandmother was, and still is. :D



She was a wonderful person :') I suffer from depression anyway. I couldn't bare to see her in that much pain. Thank you you saved me from suicidal thoughts :') Thank you.

[The Trendy Wolf]

She was a wonderful person :') I suffer from depression anyway. I couldn't bare to see her in that much pain. Thank you you saved me from suicidal thoughts :') Thank you.

No problem! Please, if you want to talk, don't hesitate to message me. :D

[Fanta_Lover44]

I'm so sorry to hear about this, you're not a bad person and I know you've got a lot of guilt on you but its not your fault. Honestly its no-ones fault, if i'm honest, my granddad has got really bad memory problems, he doesn't know who he is, who hes grandchildren are etc. I rather not see him anymore because it hurts seeing a loved one like that, my granddad has alzhimers or something like that. But stay strong, i'm here if you need someone to talk to. ;)