Suicidal Dreams

[candabear17]

I've had 4 in the last 2 weeks. It's starting to get really scary. In every one but the last one, I killed myself by falling. In the last one I shot myself in the head and it was very graphic. I've had really bad nightmares before but never like this. I'd never killed myself in my dreams before. I told my therapist and she told me I have to go back on my medication before it gets worse which really sucks because I came off of it so I could feel happy without being dependent on some outside source. Have you ever had these kinds of dreams before?
Right before I hit the ground in my first dream, I thought to myself that I was okay with dying. Now I keep wondering, if I were to do that, would I change my mind at the last minute? I don't think I would. I'm trying to avoid thinking about it because I'm afraid I'll realize that I'm okay with dying and then I'll have nothing keeping me from doing it.
I don't know what to do. I'm so afraid of myself right now. Any advice?

[Tarannosaurus]

I've had 4 in the last 2 weeks. It's starting to get really scary. In every one but the last one, I killed myself by falling. In the last one I shot myself in the head and it was very graphic. I've had really bad nightmares before but never like this. I'd never killed myself in my dreams before. I told my therapist and she told me I have to go back on my medication before it gets worse which really sucks because I came off of it so I could feel happy without being dependent on some outside source. Have you ever had these kinds of dreams before?
Right before I hit the ground in my first dream, I thought to myself that I was okay with dying. Now I keep wondering, if I were to do that, would I change my mind at the last minute? I don't think I would. I'm trying to avoid thinking about it because I'm afraid I'll realize that I'm okay with dying and then I'll have nothing keeping me from doing it.
I don't know what to do. I'm so afraid of myself right now. Any advice?

Same stuff has been happening to me and they are extremely graphic too. See what it's like after going back on your medication, if it doesn't help you could try seeing a neurologist. Have you ever had hallucinations or have you recently been getting really bad headaches?

[AlexOnToast]

I keep having a dream where I walk into my bedroom and see myself lying lifeless and cold on the bed :( I have no idea what these kind of dreams mean but they are freaky AF...

[EmmaJane]

I suffer with more of a hurtful and painful dream for me. In my dream it repeats my past but with what happened it replaces the guy who did it with my boyfriend which hurts me 10x more thinking he will do what the other guy did. I don't want that to happen. :(

[Bmble_B]

I've had 4 in the last 2 weeks. It's starting to get really scary. In every one but the last one, I killed myself by falling. In the last one I shot myself in the head and it was very graphic. I've had really bad nightmares before but never like this. I'd never killed myself in my dreams before. I told my therapist and she told me I have to go back on my medication before it gets worse which really sucks because I came off of it so I could feel happy without being dependent on some outside source. Have you ever had these kinds of dreams before?
Right before I hit the ground in my first dream, I thought to myself that I was okay with dying. Now I keep wondering, if I were to do that, would I change my mind at the last minute? I don't think I would. I'm trying to avoid thinking about it because I'm afraid I'll realize that I'm okay with dying and then I'll have nothing keeping me from doing it.
I don't know what to do. I'm so afraid of myself right now. Any advice?
My advice is although you dont want to depend on an outside source, I think you should get back on the medication. Im sorry to say this. To be honest, that medication could be what saves your life... Plz dont do anything rash, live out your life to the fullest. Everyone's life is like a book, sometimes sad and sometimes happy. But you'll never truly know how it ends unless you read up to that very point, and I know it may be very hard to read to at times, but you have to read it until the end to actually be sure what happens. Part of the reasons I joined this forum is to help people, and I hope Im doing that right now
Cheers! :)

[Daz 2000]

I'm no doctor, but I reckon you people are suffering from depression. I hope your nasty dreams soon cease.

[AlanPeanuts]

I have my own suicidal dreams, but they're a bit complex, so I won't bore you guys with all details. All-in-all I'd say Daz is right about the depression thing though.. I'm still waiting to speak with my therapist, he's been out of town for a while, but I'll back to you if I do.

[Karkat]

I have dreams like this often. I also have dreams that my family members are dying, or are diagnosed with terminal illnesses (Night before last, I dreamt that my sister was diagnosed with ALS)
Or I'll have dreams about getting pregnant and miscarrying, or losing the baby right after birth. (Had this sort of dream last night. I think it may be because I miscarried last year.)
Sometimes I'll have dreams that I'm being raped and attacked. (I was raped when I was 13.)

I have nightmare disorder, night terrors, and PTSD though. I don't know if that seems relevant to you.

Well, I hope the medication helps. Nightmares (especially ones about death) are awful things. I'm so sorry. :(