I hate myself...

[Jman437]

So, the title says it all...
I was bullied as hell by my classmates up until 8th grade, it left me a little bit scarred:
-Everytime I made a mistake, they'd start laughing at me, throwing papers at me and calling me names;
-Everytime I had a bad grade, I got bullied to the ground, even though most of them didn't get better grades than me;
Fact is: some of them didn't even graduated high school, and I'm in college now.(They were dumb, if I can get into college, anyone can, as long as they have cash, and believe me, everyone on my class was middle class).

Because I was always bullied to the ground(and because I'm a weak, useless pussy) I now have an extreme fear of failure(because I always remember the names they called me and their laughs, and it causes an intense feeling of embarassment), and it's not because I'm not willing to change, it's because I don't have what it takes to change. I'm just a weak, useless pussy who will never amount to much. I'm not(not even by a long shot) an expert in doing things right, it's fantastic how I even got to college(God helped me), but then I realized that if I can enter college, anyone can enter, as long as they have money.

Plus, I'm the only one of my group of friends who doesn't have a girlfriend, and it may seem fake, but it isn't. EVERY single one of my friends had their girls handed out on a silver platter!

So, here I am: a 18 year old pussy who never did anything right in his life and hasn't or will never have a girlfriend, because he is so fucking useless and the biggest pussy that has ever roamed the earth...

[tom101]

I would not say your a pussy. You got picked on by a group of classmate and still went in to school and then continue your education. That take balls. Yea anyone can go to college, but thats not the point it is what you do with your time there. We fail at things and that is how we learn. It Does not make weak if anything it will make you stronger and help you have a better understand. When babys learns to walk they will fall over they have not failed they are learning. Just set out some weekly goals for yourself and work towards them. Remember does not matter if you "fall" just pick yourself back up and try again you will get there in the end.

[Reghan]

No you're not. Don't listen to anything they tell you. I'm sure you are a wonderful person! :) If you ever want to talk let me know :)

[Dark Unicorn]

Omg dude!Are you kidding me right now?Do you know how ballsy you are for going through all of that and still continuing with your education?I have great respect for you just reading this.I am really terribly sorry you had to go through all that.I just hate that you were bullied.You seem like such a lovely person.Please believe me when I say you are the furthest thing from a [p-word] there is.

[Jman437]

What real choice do I have? Not continuing my education and become human garbage when I'm older? Of course I moved on with my education! I had no choice!
Most of my friends aren't going to fail any classes, so if they can, so do I...

[Star Wolf]

Now, now, I am going to start off by saying you're beautiful for not becoming a bully yourself after going through such abuse. Continuing your education makes you strong, you are not a pussy. You have endured and have shown by sticking with it that you drive and ambition to succeed.

You just have kept telling yourself you're a pussy, and if you feel that way about yourself, it becomes your personal reality, despite it being not true in the real world.

You have low self-esteem and low self-worth from being chipped away at for so long. I too struggled with that, but have been pulling myself up more and more lately. The trick is to stop internalizing how they define you by writing down a list of all your good qualities and complimenting yourself everyday. It's in changing how you view yourself, and in halting self-abusive negative thoughts about yourself.

Now breaking how you view yourself is a hard habit, but human beings have the chance and ability to look at themselves with respect and not define their worth by how others see them. Those bullies were poisonous, now choose to heal from that poison.

[Jman437]

Now, now, I am going to start off by saying you're beautiful for not becoming a bully yourself after going through such abuse. Continuing your education makes you strong, you are not a pussy. You have endured and have shown by sticking with it that you drive and ambition to succeed.

You just have kept telling yourself you're a pussy, and if you feel that way about yourself, it becomes your personal reality, despite it being not true in the real world.

You have low self-esteem and low self-worth from being chipped away at for so long. I too struggled with that, but have been pulling myself up more and more lately. The trick is to stop internalizing how they define you by writing down a list of all your good qualities and complimenting yourself everyday. It's in changing how you view yourself, and in halting self-abusive negative thoughts about yourself.

Now breaking how you view yourself is a hard habit, but human beings have the chance and ability to look at themselves with respect and not define their worth by how others see them. Those bullies were poisonous, now choose to heal from that poison.

I don't know how to do it...

[Star Wolf]

I don't know how to do it...

Just stop thinking negative thoughts about yourself.

Every time you say to yourself 'I am a pussy' or 'weak', change those words to 'I am brave, and not weak or a pussy, but strong.' Even if you don't believe it now, repeating positive things to yourself is still registered by your brain, and you will begin to believe it. Also compliment and reward yourself when you do a good job.

Take a deep flow of breath into your lungs, and don't be afraid to consider and think about your good qualities, or to stop judging yourself. There is an expression, that 'you are your strongest cheerleader.' There are going to be plenty more people in your life who are going to try and defeat you, or bring you down. Do not allow your own voice to go along with theirs any longer.

When it comes to all the negative things people have said to you, think back on them saying that and look at it like what jerks they were for saying that to you. This also applies to the people who will bully you in the future. They are jerks, and they are the weak ones, for abusing people in attempts to feel better about themselves, or feel a power trip. They are also people with no more life experience than you, so what gives their opinion or observations any wisdom or value relating to you?

[the_dude69]

So, the title says it all...
I was bullied as hell by my classmates up until 8th grade, it left me a little bit scarred:
-Everytime I made a mistake, they'd start laughing at me, throwing papers at me and calling me names;
-Everytime I had a bad grade, I got bullied to the ground, even though most of them didn't get better grades than me;
Fact is: some of them didn't even graduated high school, and I'm in college now.(They were dumb, if I can get into college, anyone can, as long as they have cash, and believe me, everyone on my class was middle class).

Because I was always bullied to the ground(and because I'm a weak, useless pussy) I now have an extreme fear of failure(because I always remember the names they called me and their laughs, and it causes an intense feeling of embarassment), and it's not because I'm not willing to change, it's because I don't have what it takes to change. I'm just a weak, useless pussy who will never amount to much. I'm not(not even by a long shot) an expert in doing things right, it's fantastic how I even got to college(God helped me), but then I realized that if I can enter college, anyone can enter, as long as they have money.

Plus, I'm the only one of my group of friends who doesn't have a girlfriend, and it may seem fake, but it isn't. EVERY single one of my friends had their girls handed out on a silver platter!

So, here I am: a 18 year old pussy who never did anything right in his life and hasn't or will never have a girlfriend, because he is so fucking useless and the biggest pussy that has ever roamed the earth...


You are not seeing the forest for the trees. Okay so you are weak now what now?. I know that saying and doing are harder said than done. But you are looking for things to say that your weak. You made it to college you made it past the bullies. So sad to hear that you don't feel special because you have money to go to college. I'm sure that you are not looking for a reason to believe that you are weak cause I don't think that the whole country of Africa and south America would die to be in your shoe's

[Jman437]

Just stop thinking negative thoughts about yourself.

Every time you say to yourself 'I am a pussy' or 'weak', change those words to 'I am brave, and not weak or a pussy, but strong.' Even if you don't believe it now, repeating positive things to yourself is still registered by your brain, and you will begin to believe it. Also compliment and reward yourself when you do a good job.

Take a deep flow of breath into your lungs, and don't be afraid to consider and think about your good qualities, or to stop judging yourself. There is an expression, that 'you are your strongest cheerleader.' There are going to be plenty more people in your life who are going to try and defeat you, or bring you down. Do not allow your own voice to go along with theirs any longer.

When it comes to all the negative things people have said to you, think back on them saying that and look at it like what jerks they were for saying that to you. This also applies to the people who will bully you in the future. They are jerks, and they are the weak ones, for abusing people in attempts to feel better about themselves, or feel a power trip. They are also people with no more life experience than you, so what gives their opinion or observations any wisdom or value relating to you?

I'm fooling myself when I consider my good qualities. Come on: girls just wanna run away from me, I never had a girlfriend and probably never will, they always fall for someone else because I'm boring as heck and they do anything to get away from me. My friends LAUGH at me everytime I'm talking to a girl! Then the girl and her friends start teasing me! This was high school for me: watching my friends get girlfriends while I can't even get a girl to talk to me! THIS is why I think I'm worthless! I AM worthless and I will die alone...

[Star Wolf]

I'm fooling myself when I consider my good qualities. Come on: girls just wanna run away from me, I never had a girlfriend and probably never will, they always fall for someone else because I'm boring as heck and they do anything to get away from me. My friends LAUGH at me everytime I'm talking to a girl! Then the girl and her friends start teasing me! This was high school for me: watching my friends get girlfriends while I can't even get a girl to talk to me! THIS is why I think I'm worthless! I AM worthless and I will die alone...

Oh poor you! Come on man, if you keep thinking like this You'll be the one to make it true! And measuring your self worth by whether you have a girlfriend or not is Not the way to go about life. I've already said all I can to help you, so please, think about and consider the words I wrote before.

Because all it boils down to IS believing in yourself; and Setting goals, springing for them, and work hard to make them come true. That's the secret.

And having a girlfriend will happen when you meet the right person, and love will come naturally at the right place and time.

[Jman437]

Oh poor you! Come on man, if you keep thinking like this You'll be the one to make it true! And measuring your self worth by whether you have a girlfriend or not is Not the way to go about life. I've already said all I can to help you, so please, think about and consider the words I wrote before.

Because all it boils down to IS believing in yourself; and Setting goals, springing for them, and work hard to make them come true. That's the secret.

And having a girlfriend will happen when you meet the right person, and love will come naturally at the right place and time.

How can I believe in myself? I bet you'd never believe in yourself if your were always teased and bullied to the ground ever since you were a child! And to add insult to injury, they bullied me with a passion, with a pleasure I never had!

Plus, all my friends have a girlfriend, and I'm still being teased because of it. I feel so damn lonely when I'm with them!

Why can't I meet the right person now?! Why?! Come on, ALL of them, and I really mean ALL of them have met the right person, and it was all handed out on a silver platter! And they TEASE ME and MOCK ME for that! I feel so damn inferior!!!

[Katiya]

How can I believe in myself? I bet you'd never believe in yourself if your were always teased and bullied to the ground ever since you were a child! And to add insult to injury, they bullied me with a passion, with a pleasure I never had!

Plus, all my friends have a girlfriend, and I'm still being teased because of it. I feel so damn lonely when I'm with them!

Why can't I meet the right person now?! Why?! Come on, ALL of them, and I really mean ALL of them have met the right person, and it was all handed out on a silver platter! And they TEASE ME and MOCK ME for that! I feel so damn inferior!!!

I come from a terrible back ground. But I still manage to believe in my self. Yes its hard and some times I still feel hopeless about doing what I want with my life. But I know I am better than the people who hurt me.

And now that I am above that it does not bother me much any more. You will need to find this within your self. Think long and hard about them, not you, them. What reason do they have to do this? What is their soul motivation? (Motivation comes from inside for everyone, not something or soneone else) a and why do they feel the way they do? Why do they feel the need to do this to you? (Its not because your ugly or fat or get bad grades. It has to do with them.)

What they are doing is wrong and was wrong and had nothing to do with you and everything to do with themselves. If you can, expose them when they confront you. But first think long and hard about them and Do Not bring your self into it in any Negative way!

Start viewing the world through logic an reason rather than emotion or faith. This will help you see into their motivations and see how you are likely not what they say.

[Jman437]

I will always be better than my bullies, none of them reached college, most of them failed school so, yeah, I'm better than them...
I just can't get over the fact that all my friends have a girlfriend, and I guarantee you that most of them are as insecure as me!
How can I look at the world with logic? I just can't do it...