hpq666
January 12th, 2014, 10:54 PM
In the past year or two, I have become very good friends with this girl (for security purposes I will call her S). S and I first became friends last year when we had an art class together. Our teacher gave us a plethora of free time, so that left us litterally hours every other day to just talk. We bonded over music as well as drugs. I smoked pot semi-regularly, while s, at the time did harder drugs.
As many of you know, drug users often have some sort of mental illness's. We would often share and comfort eachother about our struggles with anxiety, depression, and mental illness in general. As time has passed and we have got to know eachother better, I have learned that S has had a very traumatic past.The summer before we met eachother, S started to do heroin regularly. As time has gone on she has swayed in and out of addiction. As well as "dabling" in hard drugs, she also had a lot of sex. I do not know exactly how much but all I know is it was a lot. Recently I have found that S was raped/sexually abused multiple times. On top of that, she also has very bad panick attacks/anxiety and depression.
Currently, S is being drug tested by her parents so and relatively briefly before that she had been clean of all hard drugs and had just been smoking pot. But now that she is clean she is having a really hard time dealing with her mentall illness's. Although I have some anxiety and depression, it is not even close to the level hers is. I try to talk to her and understand her when she is upset but it is very hard for me becuase it just seems so foreign. She has anxiety attacks and flashbacks on an almost daily basis where I have them at most, bi-weekly.
The worst part about this situation is that, I really really love S. In fact, I would jump in front of a bus for her if that meant making her happy. Since her "cleaning up" she has just been in the dumps all the time. I have tried telling her that she can talk to me whenever she wants if shes sad and I will try and listen to her/cheer her up for as long as she needs. But she just bottles up all her sorrow and doesn't tell anyone. I am concerned that if she keeps doing this, that she will either end up commiting suicide (she has tried before) or being sent back to the psych ward.
I need advice about how I can do something about this whole situation? I know that if she doesn't want to share with me about her problems she doesn't have to but it is driving ME crazy seeing her go crazy. Please help me out.
As many of you know, drug users often have some sort of mental illness's. We would often share and comfort eachother about our struggles with anxiety, depression, and mental illness in general. As time has passed and we have got to know eachother better, I have learned that S has had a very traumatic past.The summer before we met eachother, S started to do heroin regularly. As time has gone on she has swayed in and out of addiction. As well as "dabling" in hard drugs, she also had a lot of sex. I do not know exactly how much but all I know is it was a lot. Recently I have found that S was raped/sexually abused multiple times. On top of that, she also has very bad panick attacks/anxiety and depression.
Currently, S is being drug tested by her parents so and relatively briefly before that she had been clean of all hard drugs and had just been smoking pot. But now that she is clean she is having a really hard time dealing with her mentall illness's. Although I have some anxiety and depression, it is not even close to the level hers is. I try to talk to her and understand her when she is upset but it is very hard for me becuase it just seems so foreign. She has anxiety attacks and flashbacks on an almost daily basis where I have them at most, bi-weekly.
The worst part about this situation is that, I really really love S. In fact, I would jump in front of a bus for her if that meant making her happy. Since her "cleaning up" she has just been in the dumps all the time. I have tried telling her that she can talk to me whenever she wants if shes sad and I will try and listen to her/cheer her up for as long as she needs. But she just bottles up all her sorrow and doesn't tell anyone. I am concerned that if she keeps doing this, that she will either end up commiting suicide (she has tried before) or being sent back to the psych ward.
I need advice about how I can do something about this whole situation? I know that if she doesn't want to share with me about her problems she doesn't have to but it is driving ME crazy seeing her go crazy. Please help me out.