I am so confused...

[ilikehorses2]

I feel the need to cut and yet I don't know why! I really need help understanding all of this. I have been confused about this since I was 8 or 9.

I tried suicide when I was 8 (If eating soap counts). I didn't know what I was doing and again around 12 years old and again at 13(these were pretty bad). That was when I was depressed and not thinking straight.

I guess what I am asking is, why do I cut, why does it feel good, and why can't I stop?

I want to know why sometimes I want to take pictures of what I did?


I have a therapist, but I am scared to tell her this stuff because I am scared I am going to be put in a mental hospital or something! I am scared I will break my moms heart too! Help?:what:

[Natsuki]

I can't speak for everyone because different people cut for different reasons, but I cut because it's a release. It doesn't necessarily make me happy, but it feels slightly good. Like when I see the blood going down my arm I like it and it feels good. It's like a coping mechanism. It doesn't even really help my depression, but I still like it.

[Harley Quinn]

You can't run away all the time because you're scared of what might happen, if you feel that you need to talk to someone, talk to them because they are there to help you and they are there to make sure you're safe. Sometimes, there doesn't need to be a reason for everything, sometimes you may just feel like you need to do something to take the edge off, that's okay too. It feels good because endorphins are rushing around your body, it's a chemical release in the brain. It's addictive, self harm and it isn't easy to just stop but I do suggest that you find alternatives to self harm.

[Katiya]

I always took pics. Idk why. Guess I just wanted to see it again or remember. I think it helped me not cut to take the pics because I could see cutting my self without doing it. Beats me really. But its not abnormal all the cutters I know do it to Lol. I co fessed one day to a friend I took pics and she's like 'Omg so do I. I felt so weird!'

Its a release to cut. A way to express feelings. Take out anger ext... Reasons are many

[ksdnfkfr]

When you are doing it cutting is like this deep dark secret that you are terrified how ppl will react to, especially parents. When my cousin found out i was sh and ratted me out, what
my parents and therapist were saying was "why didnt you tell us?!" and every reason i
had for keeping it from them was totally wrong, and I got better