so fucking sick of this

[thatgothgirluknow]

I so fucking sick of being the one who tells everyone else not to. cut when that's exactly what i want more than anything else in the world right now but nobody ever told me not to cut not even my own grandma she could careless just like evryone else in the world in the world I'm sick of fighting is giving in really that bad cause if no one else cares then cares why should I I can't take this anymore I'm supposed to be there for everyone else but no body is ever there for me maybe I'm just selfish but I'm at my braking point and I see no point in fighting any more

[RavleIncarnate]

I see your point. I feel like that too, sometimes. You know, I used to cut in my own, special little way. It hurt so much, I was sent to hospital. As of now, and for the rest of my life, I will never be able to move my left shoulder again. I did it cuz I felt that the physical pain drowns out the emotional. It does, and yet it also makes it worse. Don't do it, for the sake of all that's holy. Don't, because I don't want you to fall into the same spiraling self-destructive addiction I did. Please, don't.

[thatgothgirluknow]

That's the problem I'm already addicted but nobody fucking cares I've tried to get help I told my grandma I was cutting I told my pastor nobody cared and I can't get rid of it I'm ashamed of the cuts im afraid they'll scar up but yet I can't stop myself from doing it I don't know what to do anymore because instead of helping asking for help only made things worse every day I tell myself I'm having a great day I have no reason to cut and I font until its midnight and I finally decide to go to sleep and have flash backs of being abused and now I think y the hell do I try because I always fail I always do just over stupid things like social. Anxiety or another fight with my grandma and the worst part is that I was forced to tell my grandma and when she didn't care us think I'd be happy but I wanted her to freak out to ask why not just leave the letter on counter and go watch tv