LifeIsSomething
January 9th, 2014, 12:08 PM
Junior year was when I started dating my girlfriend and now it's halfway through senior year and college is coming up.
We spent 7 happy months together till one day after winter break, she thought about the future and said she doesn't want to limit me to my own college experience since I really didn't care where I wanted to go except I wanted to be with her and get a biology degree. I honestly didn't care where I was going. She also told me that I had traits she really loves yet our personalities don't match and some qualities she wanted. She's outspoken while i'm a bit shy.
It was the best relationship we could ask for and it was a time where we really felt the genuine love. I know I shouldn't be tugging on this too much. We've done a lot together (to the point of fingering and such) and it's just my own personal feeligs that are lingering for her.
I know that she's really trying not to go back into the relationship since she just doesn't want to build up the emotions and break away at the end of the year (she's been crying too and you can see that in her).
She wants to be really close friends and honestly, we have 3 classes together on one day where we have to work together. It's been rough and I just.. I don't know how to deal with this honestly. I need to move on because it isn't happening and i'm trying to accept that. We've talked together and tried to persuade her but it just wouldn't work so in the end I accept what happens.
I can't just ignore her because we literally are in the same class one day and we share the same friends. People change in college and we both agree to that. I asked her if we could still do things like for senior year try out valentines day and prom even as friends. Then when we actually do goto college, when our first year finishes, we'll meet back together and see if things have changed between who we are and how we feel and that after our educations done, maybe we'll consider dating again. At this point we're both really young and I don't know what's ahead of me. We're at a really confusing point where we just can't ignore each other yet being just close friends just kills me. We just had a past.. and I just don't know what to do. I know i'm in denial trying to get us back together, but you can't tell me to just "Go date someone else" or "Stay away from her" because it's just not possible this year. There's just things that she wants me to try to change and then she'll consider dit in the future, and i'm really happy to see her want to be free in college (she doesn't want to date but she wants to be her own person and build on that, yet I know things can change and I have to just realize that). This is just really hard for me to try and figure out on my own.. and maybe we will me new people in the future. It's just getting through the last semester of high school.
We spent 7 happy months together till one day after winter break, she thought about the future and said she doesn't want to limit me to my own college experience since I really didn't care where I wanted to go except I wanted to be with her and get a biology degree. I honestly didn't care where I was going. She also told me that I had traits she really loves yet our personalities don't match and some qualities she wanted. She's outspoken while i'm a bit shy.
It was the best relationship we could ask for and it was a time where we really felt the genuine love. I know I shouldn't be tugging on this too much. We've done a lot together (to the point of fingering and such) and it's just my own personal feeligs that are lingering for her.
I know that she's really trying not to go back into the relationship since she just doesn't want to build up the emotions and break away at the end of the year (she's been crying too and you can see that in her).
She wants to be really close friends and honestly, we have 3 classes together on one day where we have to work together. It's been rough and I just.. I don't know how to deal with this honestly. I need to move on because it isn't happening and i'm trying to accept that. We've talked together and tried to persuade her but it just wouldn't work so in the end I accept what happens.
I can't just ignore her because we literally are in the same class one day and we share the same friends. People change in college and we both agree to that. I asked her if we could still do things like for senior year try out valentines day and prom even as friends. Then when we actually do goto college, when our first year finishes, we'll meet back together and see if things have changed between who we are and how we feel and that after our educations done, maybe we'll consider dating again. At this point we're both really young and I don't know what's ahead of me. We're at a really confusing point where we just can't ignore each other yet being just close friends just kills me. We just had a past.. and I just don't know what to do. I know i'm in denial trying to get us back together, but you can't tell me to just "Go date someone else" or "Stay away from her" because it's just not possible this year. There's just things that she wants me to try to change and then she'll consider dit in the future, and i'm really happy to see her want to be free in college (she doesn't want to date but she wants to be her own person and build on that, yet I know things can change and I have to just realize that). This is just really hard for me to try and figure out on my own.. and maybe we will me new people in the future. It's just getting through the last semester of high school.