Underground_Network
February 17th, 2008, 08:17 PM
Yep, I still suck.. I utterly fail when it comes to girls.. I used to think that if a girl started a conversation with me, I could talk with her. The truth is, I can, but I say the stupidest things... I never know what to say, and all my friends are strange so so am I. I always talk about retarted shit around them, so I don't think when I'm talking around girls (makes things easier), but then I'll say something that I probably shouldn't and kind of turn them off so to speak. I never realized how many single girls there were in my grade let alone my school. I feel like I'm compatible with quite a few girls, and I have my sights set on one girl in particular... But yeah, I suck around girls.. and.. I don't know.. I don't really like the way I look.. But I don't know how else to look.. I don't think I'm very in tune with my fashion sense lmao.. I used to wear any color but black, now all I have is black shirts.. Every day is the fucking same, put on a black band t-shirt, put on a pair of dark blue/acid wash jeans, slip on my Rise Against Vans, combed my air basically over my eyes (my hair doesn't quite reach my eyes) and then put on my black hoody/sweater.. I basically wear the same shit everyday..But then again, there's this junior (girl) in my first period class who seems to call me cute everyday, but it kind of creeps me out rather than make me feel better about myself. As most of you know, I'm really shy, and there's this girl (a year older than me), who's also really shy, and from what I can tell she's single.. But I have no idea how to approach her and talk to her.. I can talk to girls perfectly online and I've even "flirted" online, but I just can't do jack in real life.. :/ Hmmm.. I do rant don't I. I still suck. :)
EDIT: There are FIVE different girls that I like enough to eventually ask out/go on a date with/whatever.. One is a sophomore in my first period class that I like b/c she is kind of mysterious and she is shy like me, I also like her b/c she loves creative writing like I do and is physically attractive in my opinion... There's another one in my fifth period class who has attempted to flirt with me multiple times, but seems way too good for me, though we both like to doodle and she's obsessed with drawing [I like drawing, but I suck at it].. The third girl is in my fifth period class; she's not the most physically attractive girl, but I really like her because I can relate to her, but I really don't know that much about her.. The fourth girl is in my 7th period class, she recently broke up with her boyfriend who was like four years older than her, and seems to be looking for a new guy. She's really nice to me and tries to strike up a conversation, but yeah, I fail at speaking to girls... And the fifth one probably isn't even worth mentioning b/c although I find her extremely physically attractive and can seriously relate to her/am emotionally attracted to her as well, she basically doesn't know I exist. :/ YAY?
EDIT: There are FIVE different girls that I like enough to eventually ask out/go on a date with/whatever.. One is a sophomore in my first period class that I like b/c she is kind of mysterious and she is shy like me, I also like her b/c she loves creative writing like I do and is physically attractive in my opinion... There's another one in my fifth period class who has attempted to flirt with me multiple times, but seems way too good for me, though we both like to doodle and she's obsessed with drawing [I like drawing, but I suck at it].. The third girl is in my fifth period class; she's not the most physically attractive girl, but I really like her because I can relate to her, but I really don't know that much about her.. The fourth girl is in my 7th period class, she recently broke up with her boyfriend who was like four years older than her, and seems to be looking for a new guy. She's really nice to me and tries to strike up a conversation, but yeah, I fail at speaking to girls... And the fifth one probably isn't even worth mentioning b/c although I find her extremely physically attractive and can seriously relate to her/am emotionally attracted to her as well, she basically doesn't know I exist. :/ YAY?