I Don't Know What To Do!

[Alone_here]

I've never done this before or told anyone about my problems but I think it's a about time I did. I hate asking for help so this is nerve wracking for me. When I write how I feel, I feel like my problems are very insignificant and typical. I've never fit in anywhere (this started in 1st grade) and I thought it would get better but it's only gotten worse. In 8th grade I started cutting but it wasn't that bad and someone told the school so I quit for a while until halfway through my freshman year and I started again, but this time it was worse. It's been three years since I started cutting again and it only gets worse with time. No one knows I do it. I distance myself from everyone wand I fake a smile every day. No one understands what I'm going through and I don't even know what's causing these empty feelings. I think about suicide quite a bit and make plans but I never go through with them. I just need someone to talk to no might understand what I'm feeling if even a little. Please help!

[deregisterme]

I've never done this before or told anyone about my problems but I think it's a about time I did. I hate asking for help so this is nerve wracking for me. When I write how I feel, I feel like my problems are very insignificant and typical. I've never fit in anywhere (this started in 1st grade) and I thought it would get better but it's only gotten worse. In 8th grade I started cutting but it wasn't that bad and someone told the school so I quit for a while until halfway through my freshman year and I started again, but this time it was worse. It's been three years since I started cutting again and it only gets worse with time. No one knows I do it. I distance myself from everyone wand I fake a smile every day. No one understands what I'm going through and I don't even know what's causing these empty feelings. I think about suicide quite a bit and make plans but I never go through with them. I just need someone to talk to no might understand what I'm feeling if even a little. Please help!

First off, you are not alone, and you ARE important. You've taken the first steps by starting to talk about it here. I've not been through what you have, but we are here on this site and to say that you are not alone. Is there a parent, family member or counsellor that you can speak to? Take it one day at a time and hopefully things will get better

[Alone_here]

Thank you. It's really hard for me to talk to people that I know so I don't feel at all comfortable talking to family or friends and I can't talk to my school counselor because he kind of creeps me out. But I don't think it's serious enough for me to talk to as hotline or anything like that....

[Conqueror of Hearts]

I've never done this before or told anyone about my problems but I think it's a about time I did. I hate asking for help so this is nerve wracking for me. When I write how I feel, I feel like my problems are very insignificant and typical. I've never fit in anywhere (this started in 1st grade) and I thought it would get better but it's only gotten worse. In 8th grade I started cutting but it wasn't that bad and someone told the school so I quit for a while until halfway through my freshman year and I started again, but this time it was worse. It's been three years since I started cutting again and it only gets worse with time. No one knows I do it. I distance myself from everyone wand I fake a smile every day. No one understands what I'm going through and I don't even know what's causing these empty feelings. I think about suicide quite a bit and make plans but I never go through with them. I just need someone to talk to no might understand what I'm feeling if even a little. Please help!

I understand every word of this...as much as you hate talking about your feelings you need to start doing that. If it's too hard for you to talk about this with someone you know, then it is a good think you came here...and don't you ever think your problems are insignificant, they are as real and as serious as anyone else's.

Suicide is...well it isn't a solution that's for sure. There is so nuch to live for and you just need to see some small part of it and grab it and hold tightly until you stop thinkibg about suicide.
Friends, family, something you like doing...anything??

I am so sorry I can't tell you how to overcome those empty feelings, but you definitely need to find something that will keep you going and stong.

[Katiya]

Your not alone! :) we all will talk. I've done lots of it lol

[Dizzy]

Indeed, you're not alone! You may talk with me if you want to at least! ^^

[EmmaJane]

You are not ALONE! We are all here for you. You can VM me anytime you want I'll reply! ^_^

[Alone_here]

I understand every word of this...as much as you hate talking about your feelings you need to start doing that. If it's too hard for you to talk about this with someone you know, then it is a good think you came here...and don't you ever think your problems are insignificant, they are as real and as serious as anyone else's.

Suicide is...well it isn't a solution that's for sure. There is so nuch to live for and you just need to see some small part of it and grab it and hold tightly until you stop thinkibg about suicide.
Friends, family, something you like doing...anything??

I am so sorry I can't tell you how to overcome those empty feelings, but you definitely need to find something that will keep you going and stong.

It's fine you can't tell me how to overcome the feelings, but just talking to people I don't know who kind of understand what I'm going through helps quite a bit. Although I think of suicide quite a bit and different ways to do it, I also think about the future and have a plan for the future as well. I have conflicting feelings about it because I want to do it, but at the same time I don't, if that makes sense. Also, the reason I don't feel like my problems need to be worried about very much is because I don't cut very often, but when I do, I make a lot of cuts all over my arm, sometimes arms. If I don't want to risk people seeing the cuts, I will sometimes cut on my legs (which I mostly do in the winter since I won't be wearing shorts).

[Alone_here]

First off, you are not alone, and you ARE important. You've taken the first steps by starting to talk about it here. I've not been through what you have, but we are here on this site and to say that you are not alone. Is there a parent, family member or counsellor that you can speak to? Take it one day at a time and hopefully things will get better

I do try and take it one day at a time but it seems like it gets worse with time. I also wish I had someone to talk to but I don't trust anyone I know enough to be able to talk openly with them. My mom and some friends knew I cut back in 8th grade (but not a lot) and when they found out, it scared me so I stopped for a while then started again once everyone forgot about it, so it's really hard to be able to talk to them because they don't understand, they get really mad at me. :(

[Etcetera]

Find someone to talk to. They will help you!

I have been cutting for 5 years and I hid it very well. I told the school nurse about a month ago and she got me some help, and now I am 24 days clean counting today. I have vowed within myself that December 11th, 2013, is the last time I am ever going to cut in my life.

Find something that you can help take your mind off the bad things. For me, that's music. I just go play one of my instruments and it helps me. For you, it could be something else. Drawing, coloring, cooking, playing sports, anything that you can put your mind on.

[Alone_here]

Find someone to talk to. They will help you!

I have been cutting for 5 years and I hid it very well. I told the school nurse about a month ago and she got me some help, and now I am 24 days clean counting today. I have vowed within myself that December 11th, 2013, is the last time I am ever going to cut in my life.

Find something that you can help take your mind off the bad things. For me, that's music. I just go play one of my instruments and it helps me. For you, it could be something else. Drawing, coloring, cooking, playing sports, anything that you can put your mind on.

I do things that take my mind off of cutting but they usually don't last for long. I listen/play music and read and write but nothing seems to help for long. As for talking to someone, there's not really anyone I trust enough to talk to, which is why I posted on here. For me, just talking to people who don't know me is a big step since I've never talked to anyone before.

[deregisterme]

I do try and take it one day at a time but it seems like it gets worse with time. I also wish I had someone to talk to but I don't trust anyone I know enough to be able to talk openly with them. My mom and some friends knew I cut back in 8th grade (but not a lot) and when they found out, it scared me so I stopped for a while then started again once everyone forgot about it, so it's really hard to be able to talk to them because they don't understand, they get really mad at me. :(

Keep at it. It's a shame that they got mad, rather than show understanding. There are people who have been though what you have. Remember you are not alone...

[Alone_here]

Keep at it. It's a shame that they got mad, rather than show understanding. There are people who have been though what you have. Remember you are not alone...

Thank you. I've been trying to find someone to talk to but it is proving very difficult to do...

[Conqueror of Hearts]

It's fine you can't tell me how to overcome the feelings, but just talking to people I don't know who kind of understand what I'm going through helps quite a bit. Although I think of suicide quite a bit and different ways to do it, I also think about the future and have a plan for the future as well. I have conflicting feelings about it because I want to do it, but at the same time I don't, if that makes sense. Also, the reason I don't feel like my problems need to be worried about very much is because I don't cut very often, but when I do, I make a lot of cuts all over my arm, sometimes arms. If I don't want to risk people seeing the cuts, I will sometimes cut on my legs (which I mostly do in the winter since I won't be wearing shorts).

I feel like I wrote everything you said now...I feel just the same. I do think about suicide quite often, though I know I shouldn't do it...my main problem, I think, is numbness. I can't feel much really, sometimes I feel anger or sadness, or even a slight happiness but I can't detect any emotion most of the time. And I don't cut like everyday, I have need to cut every few days but I don't always cut when the urge comes. But just like you when I cut it's all over the place...

What's been bothering you the most??? Is there something that you find really hard to overcome?

-xx

[Alone_here]

I feel like I wrote everything you said now...I feel just the same. I do think about suicide quite often, though I know I shouldn't do it...my main problem, I think, is numbness. I can't feel much really, sometimes I feel anger or sadness, or even a slight happiness but I can't detect any emotion most of the time. And I don't cut like everyday, I have need to cut every few days but I don't always cut when the urge comes. But just like you when I cut it's all over the place...

What's been bothering you the most??? Is there something that you find really hard to overcome?

-xx

I don't think there's one particular thing that's bothering me, and if there is, I have no idea what it is. Most likely, it's just a bunch of little things that have gotten piled up since I was young. I have a really hard time opening up so I mostly keep things bottled up, which probably doesn't help me any.