Needing help staying safe.

[King_of_Hearts]

So I have been having an interesting past couple weeks and I feel as though I am going to relapse tonight. I have been giving it the odd thought every know and then tonight and I wnt to cut. It doesn't help that my room is littered with pocket knives and 2 feet away from the gun room ( with ammunition ). There is literally no reason to cut or... worse... and I am afraid if I do I will fuck everybody I care about's life up. Any advice for me?

[fordgtguy]

Dont even have these thoughts run through your head. I had a cousin kill himself almost 2 years ago and my god did it fuck up his familys like and also mine even though i wasent that close to him. Go see someone if you are having these thoughts and dont act upon those thoughts come on cutting or suicide is for the weak be strong and get though it. Then when you get older you will be like god dammit i was stupid for thinking that

[Hallie]

You made it this long, just hold on--I know you can do it. Focus on the computer. Watch some funny videos on Youtube. That always helps me. Draw a butterfly where you would normally go to cut first and write someone's name there--someone that you care about and would be hurt if you cut. This way if you cut then the butterfly will die--the person who is that butterfly will die.
when you are no longer in a state of mind where you want to cut, get rid of you blades. Throw them out or bury them or something, but you need to get rid of them. If you ever want to talk I am here for you. Don't hesitate to message me. Stay strong ~

[King_of_Hearts]

I would do the butterfly project... but the person I would do... I love her but there is a situation... her name reminds me of my pain. I just thought of her, how much I love and miss her, and cried.