missing out

[Maiden]

1,5 years clean from cutting and yet i feel this way, this day of all. I've had a party with my friends and had a great time and yet all i can think about is to cut... just one cut watch the blood flow and be satisfied, i try not to but every thought just end upp with me feeling like im missing out, like i still need that release.

After all this time and feeling better i would of thought i could get rid of this shit. Maybe i will have to carry this around for the rest of my life :mad:

[ksdnfkfr]

yeah could be lifelong i suppose. Probably happens with any harmful thing that gave
satisfaction, like smoking, drugs, alcohol, overeating. The temptation is probably always somewhere in the back of the mind. The fix, the release, the satisfaction. It totally sucks.

[thatgothgirluknow]

yeah from what ive herd it doesnt go away anyone i know who has cut still gets tempted sometimes

[Katiya]

I use to but I've never felt like that. Occasionally if Iget supper pissed about ssomething I'll want to but if I can find someone to complain to about the event the feeling goes away

I would say it will take time. Or finding something else that gives a release. Some people like to run ext. .