I Feel Alone But I Know I'm Not

[Captain Canada]

Alright so basically I have like... 2 friends (Besides all you guys and girls) and I dont mind having two friends either. One of them I recently had a crush on. Turns out she was confused about her feeling and it wasnt until I confessed to her that she realized that she didnt like me back. To top it off shes now in a relationship. I still love her and it hurts so much... I cant tell her that I feel this way but its starting to really get to me. Its hard to move on when shes your best friend and pretty much your only friend :( My other friend is really trustworthy but I dont have the opportunity to talk to her because we dont have each others contact info. Some of you have been really helpful but I still feel this way. Its starting to really get into my head and its not fucking stopping. Now it seems like every single thing just pisses me off and makes me feel like cutting. I threw my old blades out but. it turns out I have a lot more... I'll do anything to stop feeling like this but I cant stop loving her and aching to talk with her and be with her... Any advice??

[tundravortex]

Alright so basically I have like... 2 friends (Besides all you guys and girls) and I dont mind having two friends either. One of them I recently had a crush on. Turns out she was confused about her feeling and it wasnt until I confessed to her that she realized that she didnt like me back. To top it off shes now in a relationship. I still love her and it hurts so much... I cant tell her that I feel this way but its starting to really get to me. Its hard to move on when shes your best friend and pretty much your only friend :( My other friend is really trustworthy but I dont have the opportunity to talk to her because we dont have each others contact info. Some of you have been really helpful but I still feel this way. Its starting to really get into my head and its not fucking stopping. Now it seems like every single thing just pisses me off and makes me feel like cutting. I threw my old blades out but. it turns out I have a lot more... I'll do anything to stop feeling like this but I cant stop loving her and aching to talk with her and be with her... Any advice??

not being mean or anything but stop thinking about that one friend who you love because if you make that right move and some how ruin that persons relationship than she might not ever forgive you for that and might not ever get the chance to tell her again so wait and see what happens in the future(remember theres more fish in the sea-shes not the only one out there)and please dont start cutting it will just make you look bad and make you feel even worse than you already are

[Katiya]

Well you just have to move on. There's more fish in the sea like he said^ So try and find a new relationship. Once you do you likely will forget about this. Or if you can't do that just do things you enjoy as much as possible. Eventually you will come to terms with it and move on. It takes time.

[Hallie]

I can't help with the cutting --this is only my fifth day without cutting, but I can tell you that you're not alone. We all get the urges. I know EXACTLY how you feel. I fell in love with a beautiful girl last year and when I found out that I actually had a chance because she's gay--I got my hopes up. Turns out, she didn't feel the same, and I got my heart broken. I still think about her a lot, and it hurts a little, but I promise you, it gets better with time. You'll be okay. You'll find someone who realizes how beautiful you really are :) if she doesn't see it, then she's not worth your time. You deserve better.