what's going on and what do i do?

[pingo5]

Lately(past month or two) i've been feeling down when not doing fun things. its hard to explain. if im doing something i enjoy(playing games, playing an instrument, etc.) i feel fine. but if im doing something boring(class) or am left to my thoughts, i feel down. i feel guilty for every little or big bad thing i've done, and i can't get them out of my head. i also feel alone. i miss my girlfriend that broke up with me. reminds me of the other one that broke up with me, makes me feel like i can't hold a good relationship. i feel im going to be alone for the rest of my life, or im not going to graduate, im going to screw up and not get anywhere. i'm in my room all the time, on my laptop, because thats all i think i can do. i don't know what else to do. i have my piano keyboard that plugs into it, but i dont find much else appealing. i'm failing classes, because i can't do homework. Maybe its because i get distracted. do i? if its on the computer i usually stray off to more enjoyable things. i do well in all my classes, for what i do do. but things get handed in late, or not at all. i'm failing a few now. i have homework to do now, makeup work. but i'm here. i've failed a few last year, and one the year before, but i didn't feel down like this then. i don't like it. lately i've been having trouble paying attention in class too. i don't have to study. i know what needs to be known. homework fails me. and projects. i'm forgetful and clumsy too.
i'm already on 2 meds
Methymphenidate(concerta) for ADD
and Zoloft for depression. i'm not sure if its depression though.
i need to figure out a way to combat this.
i've tried locking my computer to only allow access at certain times. its been taken away before. i went out on the patio to try and do it there, nothing but me and homework. even there though, i drift off into thought and it doesnt get done.

[carissaurus]

"but if im doing something boring(class) or am left to my thoughts, i feel down."
people tend to feel down when they feel like they aren't doing something productive. it's a natural feeling of a human being.

i feel guilty for every little or big bad thing i've done, and i can't get them out of my head.
I also struggle with this. I think it is because we have a hard time actually taking ownership for it. Although we know we did something wrong, we still don't want to admit it. I think the first step to helping this is saying, "Okay, I made a mistake. I'm a human being, and it's OKAY!!! to make mistakes." Then you need to forgive yourself in order to move on.

" i also feel alone. i miss my girlfriend that broke up with me. reminds me of the other one that broke up with me, makes me feel like i can't hold a good relationship."
If you cant love yourself, you cant expect somebody else to. Just because one or two or three or maybe fifty girls werent the one for you, that doesnt mean the right one still isnt out there. It takes time to find the perfect one. The ones who dont workout are the ones who teach you what you truly want in a woman.

"i'm failing classes, because i can't do homework. Maybe its because i get distracted."
If you find yourself getting distracted then you need to go somewhere else where you know you wonèt be distracted by other things or people. Try a library If you think youère falling behind, my best way for time management is an agenda. Yes, I still have one in college! I always write in when I should have stuff finished by so nothing gets left to last minute. Even if the assignment is due in two or three weeks, I break it up until littler pieces so it doesnèt feel like such a big task.

Good luck. xo

[pingo5]

"but if im doing something boring(class) or am left to my thoughts, i feel down."
people tend to feel down when they feel like they aren't doing something productive. it's a natural feeling of a human being.

i feel guilty for every little or big bad thing i've done, and i can't get them out of my head.
I also struggle with this. I think it is because we have a hard time actually taking ownership for it. Although we know we did something wrong, we still don't want to admit it. I think the first step to helping this is saying, "Okay, I made a mistake. I'm a human being, and it's OKAY!!! to make mistakes." Then you need to forgive yourself in order to move on.

" i also feel alone. i miss my girlfriend that broke up with me. reminds me of the other one that broke up with me, makes me feel like i can't hold a good relationship."
If you cant love yourself, you cant expect somebody else to. Just because one or two or three or maybe fifty girls weren't the one for you, that doesn't mean the right one still isn't out there. It takes time to find the perfect one. The ones who don't workout are the ones who teach you what you truly want in a woman.

"i'm failing classes, because i can't do homework. Maybe its because i get distracted."
If you find yourself getting distracted then you need to go somewhere else where you know you wont be distracted by other things or people. Try a library If you think you're falling behind, my best way for time management is an agenda. Yes, I still have one in college! I always write in when I should have stuff finished by so nothing gets left to last minute. Even if the assignment is due in two or three weeks, I break it up until littler pieces so it doesn't feel like such a big task.

Good luck. xo

well, i don't think I should be feeling this down in class. its distracting me from paying attention.

I'll try to accept what i've done

i guess i'll have to learn to love myself. it's not so easy right now.

it's not distraction really; i can't even get it done when i DO go somewhere quiet with no distractions.