idk

[alliah101]

i dont really know why im depressed. I mean I know its probably because a number of things that happened to me but I can't figure out what one event really sent me over the edge. Regardless I am where I am now. I don't sleep. I don't eat. I've tried taking sleeping pills at night because the dark only makes it worse but lately they haven't been working and I find myself up all night. I've contemplated suicide twice this month but never acted upon it. I told my gf, oh btw I'm a lesbian, I told her and she flipped she yelled at me telling me I was crazy and I need to see a doctor and all this crap which really didn't help me. I cried to her begging her to listen and still nothing has changed. I've been here before just never this bad. I want to tell my parents but I already dissapointed them when I told them I was gay I don't want to dissapoint them more with this. They will put me in the hospital. I know it. I don't want to see the look on my mothers face if I told her. She would be so sad.. in summary idk what to do or how to get out of this. Lately suicide has been seeming the easiest option but I'm scared..

[chieko]

Suicide isn't the answer to anything. You were born for a very special reason. There are things that make up you that no one else has. Be grateful for that. Your situation seems really suck right now but there are lots of people out there who can empathize with you because they've been through similar things. Don't end your life before it's even really started. I'm sure your family loves you no matter what and even though they may not agree with you being gay, they're still going to love you once you've told them. I sincerely hope you'll change your mind about thinking of suicide