He just killed himself

[lifelies]

So... that boy who started bullying me at 5th grade and ruined my life at 7th has just killed himself.
He laughed at me for virtually anything. His father has some kind of neurodegenerative disorder and is basically a vegetable. No doubt this kid's life was tough, but I hate people who just said "Don't blame him for bullying you, he's got a tough life." SO WHAT? I have a tougher life and I don't bully people.
This boy once cut the hell out of my hand with a pushpin (the funny thing is that the teacher did nothing about it).
Because of this boy's laugh at me, I wanted to kill myself. Every afternoon, after school, I used to lie on the floor and think how the hell should I kill myself. EVERY. DAMN. DAY.
I barely killed myself because of this kid. But I didn't.
He did. I don't know how, but at age 15 he killed himself. And you know what?
I AM SO MAD AT LIFE. Why is he tougher than me? Why is he lucky and he got to kill himself? HE DESERVED TO SUFFER.
Why do good people with shitty lifes don't get to kill themselves? We don't deserve to suffer. He did.
And now, everyone is posting on his Facebook saying how much they loved him and how much they miss him. GOSH, he didn't even live here anymore, he lived at miles away.

So you know what? I don't give a f* about his death. I'm angry because of what I stated above, but I'm happy because that's one less asshole in this world. But he deserved to suffer for more years.

[Dark Unicorn]

Hiya.I'm sorry that you had to suffer so much and you were surrounded by people that didn't care.I get why you are angry.This kid ruined your life and got all the pity.It must feel like crap.I don't know if you put that up to get advice as well as to vent but all I can say is hang in there please.Don't die.

[Romulus]

First, everyone is worthy of Divine Mercy. I am just throwing that out there. May he rest in God's peace forever.

Now, on to you! You might remember the phrase "Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem". This is true. Every problem we have in life can be solved one way or another. In your case, that might mean going to see a professional (I'm not implying anything by this, I swear). Another problem could be solved simply by waiting for it to pass by. There are times when the issue at hand is out of our control. When this happens, all we can do is deal with it for the time being.

You talk about suicide like it is a good thing, a release from all your problems. In reality, all suicide is a way to run away from your problems. Everyone has something to offer the world. This person may of had great gifts that he could have used to make the world a better place. But now, he can't offer anything. You, on the other hand, are still alive. You have much to offer the world, and you still have the gift of life. This issue is a bump in the road. A rather large bump, but still, a bump. We always pass over these "bumps". Once we do, we are better for it. I really hope I was able to help.

Pax Christi vobiscum,
Romulus

[lifelies]

Uhm. I really don't get it.
Suicide is a good thing. I mean, if I was brave enough or there was just a button to press and die, I'd undoubtly do it!
Life is a chain of problems and pain, and suicide is the only way to get through it.
So if I ever have the chance to, I think I wouldn't hesiate on killing myself.
But who knows...