Sleeping with my cousin

[Anon798]

Ok so one night in a hotel room I had to share a room with my 25 year old cousin. I was never attracted to him in any way but something strange happened, around 3 in the morning he started playing with my feet with his. At first it felt weird so I pulled away, but then I thought it felt good. He would make it a surprise and would stroke my feet at random intervals. So I slowly moved my feet closer to his. He made me really hard and after a while I cummed. It felt so good while I was with him, but after a while I felt guilty. He made me feel gay. But I am not emotionally attracted to men I like women. I didn't sleep with him after that, but I would sleep on the floor to avoid him doing that to me again. So does this mean I'm gay?

[ksdnfkfr]

It sounds more like you were molested in an abstract way if you were under 18 at the time. A pedo adult getting an underage boy to cum does not make that boy gay.

[Second Chance]

I do not think you're gay, and my guess is that at most you have a foot fetish and nothing more. Assuming you were under 18 when this happened your cousin really should have known better and not gone as far as he did. I totally agree with the person above that because an adult pretty much molested you does not make you gay (not that there's anything wrong with being gay). The basic problem is your cousin has an issue especially if he is feeling up not only an underage guy but also doing sexual stuff with his own relatives. The problem is totally with your cousin and not with you though I feel terrible that you were pretty much violated by the jerk. You did nothing wrong, and, if anything, you did everything right by staying away from the pervert and protecting your body. Just stay away from the cousin in question in the future, and if he ever touches you again, then tell your parents.

[DeletedAccount123]

Ok so one night in a hotel room I had to share a room with my 25 year old cousin. I was never attracted to him in any way but something strange happened, around 3 in the morning he started playing with my feet with his. At first it felt weird so I pulled away, but then I thought it felt good. He would make it a surprise and would stroke my feet at random intervals. So I slowly moved my feet closer to his. He made me really hard and after a while I cummed. It felt so good while I was with him, but after a while I felt guilty. He made me feel gay. But I am not emotionally attracted to men I like women. I didn't sleep with him after that, but I would sleep on the floor to avoid him doing that to me again. So does this mean I'm gay?

As others have said, it *definitely* does not mean you're gay! So don't worry about that at all.

One small thing I would say in your cousin's defense: it sounds as if he was trying hard to see if you were into it or not, and wanted to give you plenty of opportunities to say no or back away or whatever. And as you said, it "felt so good while [you] were with him," so he probably thought you were really excited and into experimenting. I fooled around with an older cousin when I was even younger than you, and it was fun and not a big deal. But everyone is different!

Anyway, I think you're doing the right thing by just backing off now and not sleeping in the same bed.

Is your cousin openly gay? Or was this the first time you ever even thought he might be interested in a guy -- and just your luck, it happened to be you? :(

[Anon798]

I'm not really sure if he's gay because he didn't come out or anything. He isn't married either. I guess he's just touchy. I have no idea. Anyways i don't think we'll have to sleep together for a long time. And for the comments above, I guess I do have a foot fetish and I also read somewhere that the feet are an erogenous zone which means that they are very sensitive and could make you aroused.

[From Chris]

Ok so one night in a hotel room I had to share a room with my 25 year old cousin. I was never attracted to him in any way but something strange happened, around 3 in the morning he started playing with my feet with his. At first it felt weird so I pulled away, but then I thought it felt good. He would make it a surprise and would stroke my feet at random intervals. So I slowly moved my feet closer to his. He made me really hard and after a while I cummed. It felt so good while I was with him, but after a while I felt guilty. He made me feel gay. But I am not emotionally attracted to men I like women. I didn't sleep with him after that, but I would sleep on the floor to avoid him doing that to me again. So does this mean I'm gay?

I think Ezra has a good point on your situation. If you didn't feel comfortable with him doing it, then i would tell him that. Depending on how the act of touching your feet went, it could be seen as friendly or sexual which can result in completely different things. You shouldn't feel guilty, and i don't think you're gay just because you came from that. :)

-From Chris

[AtypicalTeen]

You are most definitely not gay because of this. It sounds to me like this may be very innocent. Don't worry about it, if anything happens again then you'll have to tell him you're not interested.

[mww113]

This particular situation doesn't seem to be a clear indication that you are gay. However, if what happened bothered you or made you feel violated, you should definitely talk to him or your parents about what happened.

[Tdaykin877]

It does not mean your gay, might be worth talking to him about it though