In Love With the Idea of Being in Love

[Brice]

Hey. My name is Bryce and I need advice (obviously) lol!!! Anyways my problem is that I'm in love with the idea of being in love. It seems like everybody has somebody to kiss under the mistletoe at Christmas time, someone to kiss at midnight on New Years Eve, someone to be their valentine, someone to have matching costumes with on Halloween. Me- I've got nobody. I love someone who is half way across the United States and I'm starting to feel that its hopeless. Added to that, since I met her a little more than 3 years ago, I haven't loved any other girl except her. I'm moving now, farther away. All the way to the west coast of the U.S. and I'm both happy and sad about it. I'm happy because I feel like California will be good for me and give me many new opportunities because I'm bisexual and I kind of feel like there might be more people open to it in a place where gay marriage is legal and maybe they'll help me get over my hopeless feelings. But I also have a problem: I'm not exactly, open about my sexuality. I've never dated a guy before. I've never found a gay/bi guy I liked who liked me back. Nobody really knows about it and its not because I'm ashamed of it, its because I don't feel like its their business unless they like me. So I'm hopeful about that but I'm trying not to get my hopes up because chances are that I'll end up alone like I am now. I'm the type of person who lets things go on even if I don't like them to make others happy. I don't show my emotion and I won't ask somebody out because I'd rather have them ask me out because then I know that it's real. And that just doesn't happen for me. I'm not anything special. Sure, I'm smart. Occasionally funny. A good listener. I can sort of sing. But nobody goes for guys like me. Plus, I don't enter a relationship unless I feel it. So a whole bunch of people who ask me out get turned down. So I just need help making sense of everything I just said. My issue that I need help with is that I need to be able to get over being in love with the idea of being in love.

Oh, and I always have these dreams where I'm happy and in love and nobody can judge me and I wake up and I'm happy for like 3 days but when that's over I end up jealous of who I am and the life I live in my dreams. I need help with that too.

[ImagineRepublicCity]

To be honest, I think being in love with the idea of being in love is fine. I find it very cute and make stereotyped scenarios in my head. Also, everything you said, I understand. Of course you don't want to be telling every single person you know as soon as you meet them, "Hey, I'm gay."
I think you should just take things slowly and just wait for it to come to you. If a lot of people are asking you out, it means that people do like guys like you. Just as you said, you need to be in the mood to be in a relationship, and I think you should just wait until you are and you'll find that special someone.
Good Luck in California~ c:

[Living For Love]

I don't know your age, but I believe there's someone out there for you, whether it's a guy or a girl. It's nice that you're moving to a different place because you can meet different people there, and some of them might like you. It's ok if you decline when people ask you out, because you should only go into a relationship when you think you're ready for it, when you think both of you will commit in the same way. However, you don't always need to wait for the other person to take the initiative. If both of you have the same interests, the same sense of humour, the same mindset, then things might work out, and you shouldn't waste the opportunity. And you're right, if you're bisexual, people don't need to know your sexuality unless it really matters. About your dreams, I also have them, and there's nothing wrong with it.

[newkler]

love will come in your way. you'll be happy someday! just a wait a bit