Strange Feelings

[drake90001]

Another edit: I'm not sure if this is the right section, I only put it here because I feel really depressed when these situations come across.

Okay, a few things.

The idea of self harm scares this shit out of me, yet I've actually considered a few times. I've only done it once and my (ex now) girlfriend saw and the look she gave me made me feel so bad. Sometimes I just drop down into this real low level of feeling sad to the point where I don't want to eat and I really just want to cry. It's really scary.

Also, sometimes I get this feeling in my chest like there is something pushing down on the left side of my chest. It only occurs when I'm feeling down as well. Could it be anxiety or something?

Finally, a long time ago I had what I believe to be a panic attack while I was high (marijuana). That was also really scary, I basically sat in a chair about to pass out wishing I was sober and that everything would just go away. My mind was racing like crazy and I couldn't keep focused at all. Would that be considered a panic attack?

Sorry if my thoughts are disorganized, I'm having trouble explaining this.

Edit: I do thing that this may be the cause of an anxiety disorder. These episodes (excluding the last one which was terrifying) last about 15 minutes (SOMETIMES longer depending) and consist of my just worrying and fearing things that are completely irrational. My heart rate does raise which maybe that pressure I feel on the left side of my chest. I have not been to a doctor and I'd like to get some input from people who do suffer from anxiety disorders to tell me what they think. Thank you!

[MisterNobody]

I suffer from depression, anxiety, ptsd, self-harm, and a bunch of other shit. Honestly, you need to get help. You should really get your depression/anxiety under control; it'll only get worse from here. Speak to a therapist, seek medication. I'm currently in therapy now, and it takes a long time for things to get better, but the most important thing you can do is make the decision to get better and actually stick with it. Otherwise, it's just hopeless. Also, try not to harm yourself if you can help it. Self-harm is a bitch, and once you get into the habit, it's nearly impossible to break. Good luck. Don't give up. Go find help.

[drake90001]

I suffer from depression, anxiety, ptsd, self-harm, and a bunch of other shit. Honestly, you need to get help. You should really get your depression/anxiety under control; it'll only get worse from here. Speak to a therapist, seek medication. I'm currently in therapy now, and it takes a long time for things to get better, but the most important thing you can do is make the decision to get better and actually stick with it. Otherwise, it's just hopeless. Also, try not to harm yourself if you can help it. Self-harm is a bitch, and once you get into the habit, it's nearly impossible to break. Good luck. Don't give up. Go find help.

Hey, I appreciate the advice and being so open about it.

To be honest, I wrote this post while in one of those moods, and I'm writing this in a normal mood. Right now I feel fine for the most part, nothing feels wrong. I don't think that I have depression but I have anxiety almost for sure. When the shitty feels are triggered its not that I feel like harming myself but rather I want to see if it would actually work as an escape out of the shitty moment. I've known a few people that self harm and it honestly scares the shit out of me and almost induces these feelings thinking about it.

Sorry, that was probably really disorganized. Basically, during those shitty feeling times I just feel really alone and hopeless. I loose my appetite and just want to lay in bed for a bit, maybe even cry. What would this be considered? Just a mood swing or something?

Edit: also, I've only self harmed once and there was no real motive about it. Never tried it again.

[Laci55]

I like it a lot. You know precisely what your talking about exactly where other people are coming from on this issue.