TheRedViper
December 26th, 2013, 09:47 AM
I turn 17 in a couple of months, and I've never had a girlfriend. I'm not socially awkward around girls, as one of my best friends is like, absolutely gorgeous and really popular, and I have a couple of other friends that are girls, and I act normally around them. I don't think it's my looks either, as I'm not fat and I'd say I'm average looking, not amazing, not bad. I just have never had a girlfriend, and honestly can't see myself having one in the near future, since all the girls in my year are either 1) not someone I would want to go out with, or 2) already have boyfriends, like the best friend I described earlier. I also don't go to parties, or at least, don't right now (I'm thinking about whether I should go to more, even though I don't really like them, just to meet new people).
My two other best friends, both guys, don't have girlfriends. One of them has had a couple, but not recently, and they never last. My other best mate isn't really interested in getting a girlfriend. Not that he's not straight or anything, he just doesn't really care much. I wish I was like that. Though I don't get too worked up about it, and mostly keep my feelings to myself, it kind of annoys me when I see people (specifically people I know) with a girlfriend/boyfriend. One of my kind-of friends recently got a girlfriend, and they are always all over each other, kissing and feeling each other up in public, like in school and on the bus. It doesn't just annoy me, but others too, but probably for different reasons. Though I'm not jealous of him specifically, as I don't find his girlfriend attractive or likable, it's more the fact that he has a girlfriend, something I envy, which annoys me.
I only started to really want a girlfriend when the female best friend I had became one of my good friends. At first I didn't like her in that kind of way, but later I really started to, and became insanely jealous of her boyfriend, who though I've never met, she always tells me stories about them, most very sexual and detailed, which absolutely infuriates and makes me jealous to no end. Though I avoid saying it, I think she kind of realised it at a point, and stopped telling me. But yeah, she was kind of the catalyst to me wanting a girlfriend, except the problem is, she is the only one I am really attracted to and, I try to use this word carefully, love. I asked her out once, when she said her and her boyfriend broke up, but it turned out they didn't really. We stayed really good friends, but now our friendship is kind of gone, and we are distant.
Anyways, sorry for getting sidetracked. She was just the main reason I wanted a girlfriend, because though she has many flaws, and there are things about her that most hate and judge her for, I didn't (mostly), and saw her for who she really was; a misunderstood but beautiful person, in more than one way.
Ok fuck, I just got sidetracked again. So basically, I turn 17, in February, and yet I've never had a girlfriend, and there are no girls at my school that I would want to be my girlfriend. I feel kind of hopeless, like there really isn't anyone for me. I expect that when I finish high school and go to uni there will be heaps of new people to meet, but I worry that I will lack some social skills cause I may not have had a girlfriend (or sex, for that matter) before. As I said, I'm not ugly or fat or socially awkward, but I just don't seem to have great luck with getting a girlfriend.
My two other best friends, both guys, don't have girlfriends. One of them has had a couple, but not recently, and they never last. My other best mate isn't really interested in getting a girlfriend. Not that he's not straight or anything, he just doesn't really care much. I wish I was like that. Though I don't get too worked up about it, and mostly keep my feelings to myself, it kind of annoys me when I see people (specifically people I know) with a girlfriend/boyfriend. One of my kind-of friends recently got a girlfriend, and they are always all over each other, kissing and feeling each other up in public, like in school and on the bus. It doesn't just annoy me, but others too, but probably for different reasons. Though I'm not jealous of him specifically, as I don't find his girlfriend attractive or likable, it's more the fact that he has a girlfriend, something I envy, which annoys me.
I only started to really want a girlfriend when the female best friend I had became one of my good friends. At first I didn't like her in that kind of way, but later I really started to, and became insanely jealous of her boyfriend, who though I've never met, she always tells me stories about them, most very sexual and detailed, which absolutely infuriates and makes me jealous to no end. Though I avoid saying it, I think she kind of realised it at a point, and stopped telling me. But yeah, she was kind of the catalyst to me wanting a girlfriend, except the problem is, she is the only one I am really attracted to and, I try to use this word carefully, love. I asked her out once, when she said her and her boyfriend broke up, but it turned out they didn't really. We stayed really good friends, but now our friendship is kind of gone, and we are distant.
Anyways, sorry for getting sidetracked. She was just the main reason I wanted a girlfriend, because though she has many flaws, and there are things about her that most hate and judge her for, I didn't (mostly), and saw her for who she really was; a misunderstood but beautiful person, in more than one way.
Ok fuck, I just got sidetracked again. So basically, I turn 17, in February, and yet I've never had a girlfriend, and there are no girls at my school that I would want to be my girlfriend. I feel kind of hopeless, like there really isn't anyone for me. I expect that when I finish high school and go to uni there will be heaps of new people to meet, but I worry that I will lack some social skills cause I may not have had a girlfriend (or sex, for that matter) before. As I said, I'm not ugly or fat or socially awkward, but I just don't seem to have great luck with getting a girlfriend.