rough christmas just need to vent

[thatgothgirluknow]

mostly i just need to vent its only 1:30 and my grandma is already driving me up the wall i miss my mom dad and sisters plus my grandma has throw all are traditions out the window and no matter how petty and small they where i miss them without them it just doesnt feel like christmas for the fifth day in a row all we have done is clean for hours straight she hasnt so much as even wished me a merry chistmas im used to waking up to stockings to look through but instead i woke up to the sweeper and being told to scrub the floor and wash the counters and have been cleaning for more than three hours ive been doing my very best to act like im happy when im falling apart all my freinds are having a great chistmas and posting that they got this and that or that there spending time with there family while where poor and and my family cant aford to come visit me i called my mom last night and we talked about my sister who cuts i guess i knew that she wouldnt understand but i was still mad when she said that she only does it for the atetion my grandma keeps yelling at me to clean even the smallest specks of dust up and i promised my mom i would at least try to get aloung with her for christmas but i cant help being mad at her and ignoring her by hiding in my room and im just sick of having to pretand to be happy all the time and i dont want to talk to my freinds because i dont want to ruin their christmas

[AlexOnToast]

Hey, I know how you feel. Since my mum died xmas has been pretty shit. My sister lives away in London now and she doesnt keep in contact with my dad. Even tho she came home for xmas with her fiance for 2 weeks, it's just not the same. Im a cheerful person but even i have to say that i hate christmas these days and i wish it would be over because its not the same thing anymore :( And im the same with the pretending to be happy, when people come over theyre expecting nice, bubbly Alex to say " It's great, i'm having a wonderful time" but to be honest im sick of pretending and so far ive spent most of xmas in my room alone. So if you need someone to talk to im here and i know kinda how ur feeling :/

[toomuch2handleNlife]

tell me about it Christmas this year for me has just been depressing....time for a nap anyone? hopefully next year will be better. May I ask What happen to your mom?

[AlexOnToast]

tell me about it Christmas this year for me has just been depressing....time for a nap anyone? hopefully next year will be better. May I ask What happen to your mom?

Who, me?

[PinkFloyd]

I'm really sorry you have to go through this. :( No one should have to. I'm sorry that I can't relate too much other than having some bad family that i barely have to see. my advice would be to not pretend to act all happy to your grandma. She shouldn't have to force emotions on you. If you want someone to vent to, I'm here. :)

[thatgothgirluknow]

my family is just messed up my mom lives in florida with my sisters and my step dad i lve with my grandma since when i was younger she coudnt aford to take care of me she came to help my grandma for three years then left again