Polski101
December 22nd, 2013, 05:12 PM
To this day last year I found out that my ex was pregnant. I knew it was wrong to me and how much I wish I hadn't done it i know I can't turn things back. I think it was worse for me because of not just by upbringing but also because when I was younger I lost my younger brother. Anyway, we had an abortion in mid January.
I tell you something now, it was the worst decision that I could make as that was my first son or daughter who has now been lost. It's a stereotypical thing that the "mother" or girl is more effected by this all an I think that many believe that because its us as the boyfriend or "father" of that child who has to support the girl although from personal experience it is something that I'll never loose. I tell you that my closest friends seen a different side to me, although I deal greatly from emotion anyway I don't honk they'd seen me this bad. Thankfully, as an explorer scout, I have the most trustworthy and amazing friends that I could have, and today I woke up amoung those who I first told and supported me through it. One person, my closest friend, helped me though as he'd known from others experiences an to say thank you to him last night meant so much to me although he thought it was really odd of me to hug him as I'm not normally like that.
I thought I'd share this with you to help those who wil go though it in the future and to remind you that life will get positive after it all, although you'll keep blaming yourself.
I tell you something now, it was the worst decision that I could make as that was my first son or daughter who has now been lost. It's a stereotypical thing that the "mother" or girl is more effected by this all an I think that many believe that because its us as the boyfriend or "father" of that child who has to support the girl although from personal experience it is something that I'll never loose. I tell you that my closest friends seen a different side to me, although I deal greatly from emotion anyway I don't honk they'd seen me this bad. Thankfully, as an explorer scout, I have the most trustworthy and amazing friends that I could have, and today I woke up amoung those who I first told and supported me through it. One person, my closest friend, helped me though as he'd known from others experiences an to say thank you to him last night meant so much to me although he thought it was really odd of me to hug him as I'm not normally like that.
I thought I'd share this with you to help those who wil go though it in the future and to remind you that life will get positive after it all, although you'll keep blaming yourself.