KimuraWannabe116
December 21st, 2013, 11:31 PM
So, A few months back, I was looking for something (I dont remember) and I came across some papers. The papers I came across were papers of my half brother gaining custody of me. My parents at the time, were not able to care for me, since my father (RIP) suffered a stroke back, and his mental and physical state at the time had deteriorated a lot, and my mother was not there for me, since she had been doing drugs at the time. So I started looking through more papers, and I came across this document in which was more then 20 pages long, and it had to do with the custody of me. This person who conducted this had interviewed my family members, and others who were involved in the situation. After about 10 hours of interviewing the people involved in this, he came to the conclusion that I should live with my half brother, in which a judge had also decided that it would be most appropriate. I had then, not seen my mothers side of the family ever since.
Now, here is the the regretful thing that I had done. So I was always curious who my family really was, especially my mothers side, as I would think others would be too. So of course I looked up my mothers name, and my fathers name. I had already known that my father was dead, but I just wanted to find out more, though I found out nothing interesting really, but when I looked up my mother, I discovered something quite interesting. Now in the document that was taken back in 2005, it said that my mother was trying to stay out of trouble, since she was arrested several times, though she got into trouble with the law up until 2009, as far as I discovered. Then, I discovered my mother, is on facebook. Though at the time, I just didn't want to talk to her, since I was under quite a lot of stress dealing with other things. Though I still was looking for more information on my family. Now keep in mind this was in late october that I had discovered this. Now over the course over a month and a half, my stress had subsided, though my dad (half brother) was stressed out since he had injured both of his tricipes, so I figured, I will probably contact my mother in the middle of next year, since, the healing process is long for my dad, and that, he does not want to continue working as a brick mason, as it was getting to physically demanding for him. In which case he would have to find another job, which is also stressful since he didn't have the best education (11th grade). So then just a couple days ago, I was doing some more research, and I came across some really sad news. My grandfather, had died at just 61 years old. He was from my mothers side of the family. He had died in late november, now you remember that I mentioned that I discovered my extended family in late october, well that had gotten me real upset. Since, If I had of contacted someone in my family, that I could have at least have ment up with them, and could have ment my grandfather, at least before he died. The fact that I had not contacted anyone, and that I will never get to know my grandfather just pisses the hell out of me. I always wanted to have grandparents, because there is no way that my grandparents on my fathers side of the family, would still be alive today. Though my grandmother is still living on my mothers side of the family. I am still, not going to contact them anytime soon, as my dads (half brothers) stress is increasing. Im just fed up with a lot of stuff.
Now, here is the the regretful thing that I had done. So I was always curious who my family really was, especially my mothers side, as I would think others would be too. So of course I looked up my mothers name, and my fathers name. I had already known that my father was dead, but I just wanted to find out more, though I found out nothing interesting really, but when I looked up my mother, I discovered something quite interesting. Now in the document that was taken back in 2005, it said that my mother was trying to stay out of trouble, since she was arrested several times, though she got into trouble with the law up until 2009, as far as I discovered. Then, I discovered my mother, is on facebook. Though at the time, I just didn't want to talk to her, since I was under quite a lot of stress dealing with other things. Though I still was looking for more information on my family. Now keep in mind this was in late october that I had discovered this. Now over the course over a month and a half, my stress had subsided, though my dad (half brother) was stressed out since he had injured both of his tricipes, so I figured, I will probably contact my mother in the middle of next year, since, the healing process is long for my dad, and that, he does not want to continue working as a brick mason, as it was getting to physically demanding for him. In which case he would have to find another job, which is also stressful since he didn't have the best education (11th grade). So then just a couple days ago, I was doing some more research, and I came across some really sad news. My grandfather, had died at just 61 years old. He was from my mothers side of the family. He had died in late november, now you remember that I mentioned that I discovered my extended family in late october, well that had gotten me real upset. Since, If I had of contacted someone in my family, that I could have at least have ment up with them, and could have ment my grandfather, at least before he died. The fact that I had not contacted anyone, and that I will never get to know my grandfather just pisses the hell out of me. I always wanted to have grandparents, because there is no way that my grandparents on my fathers side of the family, would still be alive today. Though my grandmother is still living on my mothers side of the family. I am still, not going to contact them anytime soon, as my dads (half brothers) stress is increasing. Im just fed up with a lot of stuff.