I think it's too hard for me to go on...

[dreamofdante]

I've been trying so hard to be confident and happy with myself and trying to enjoy life but I just don't think I have it in me anymore. I despise myself to no end...No one loves me and no one ever will. I can't keep living like this. Seeing everyone around me finding love or sexual encounters and I try so goddamn hard only to be heart broken or rejected for being too unattractive. And then I have to go through life being nice to everyone that I know even though they just use me or walk all over me for their benefit. I never do anything bad to people but I'm still treated poorly and as if I'm a tool. Love for me is a lost cause. I'll be 18 on the last day of this year yet I've never kissed anyone much to my efforts. It's to the point that I'm visibly depressed and I've tended to just give up on everything lately. My family feels that if I get any type of help it'll end up ruining my life and any future that I might have. And they're right. And if I had a loaded gun right now, I wouldn't hesitate in pulling the trigger at the side of my head. I can't live with this pain for much longer. My heart feels like it's cracked to the point that one little flaw could just shatter it and there'd be nothing left of me. Do you think there's a light at the end of the tunnel for me or should I just give up and bite the bullet...literally...

[Dark Unicorn]

I've been trying so hard to be confident and happy with myself and trying to enjoy life but I just don't think I have it in me anymore. I despise myself to no end...No one loves me and no one ever will. I can't keep living like this. Seeing everyone around me finding love or sexual encounters and I try so goddamn hard only to be heart broken or rejected for being too unattractive. And then I have to go through life being nice to everyone that I know even though they just use me or walk all over me for their benefit. I never do anything bad to people but I'm still treated poorly and as if I'm a tool. Love for me is a lost cause. I'll be 18 on the last day of this year yet I've never kissed anyone much to my efforts. It's to the point that I'm visibly depressed and I've tended to just give up on everything lately. My family feels that if I get any type of help it'll end up ruining my life and any future that I might have. And they're right. And if I had a loaded gun right now, I wouldn't hesitate in pulling the trigger at the side of my head. I can't live with this pain for much longer. My heart feels like it's cracked to the point that one little flaw could just shatter it and there'd be nothing left of me. Do you think there's a light at the end of the tunnel for me or should I just give up and bite the bullet...literally...

Hey there jack1995.Please please please don't kill yourself or anything.There IS a light at the end of the tunnel.If you hold on a little longer I promise you you'll get to the light.Having come thus far with all the crap that's been thrown at you by life makes you undoubtedly one of the bravest people I will hopefully call my friend in a bit.It sucks so bad that you get treated like a load of rubbish and I bet you are one of the kindest,loveliest people,on the planet.jack1995,the world needs NEEDS people like you.There is a beautiful girl out there waiting for you and she will think the world of you and see the beauty in you that you fail to see in yourself.For her sake,you will be glad you didn't kill yourself when everything looked bleak.You know,good things have yet to come okay?Talk to me if a genuine friend is what you feel might help at this point.You should know that you are special and beautiful and awesome.Don't let this darkness win okay,because evil always tries it's best to win.Don't kill yourself,or harm yourself in anyway,Awesome human.Message me please and I will try to help in any way possible.

[silvafox]

Hang in there mate. Yes there is always a light at the end of the tunnel haha, even if its a long tunnel.

[HeyMrsTambourine]

No please... Don't do that.
I'd like to bring your attention to sthg : there are people down here trying to help you, because they like you very much. But you don't seem to see them. Or maybe you don't want to see them ('cause they bore you), but in this case you act like you don't want the others to act.
Reconsider the idea that makes you think you're "alone with your sorrow" and look around you.
Good luck, hope it'll go fine.

[dreamofdante]

Hey there jack1995.Please please please don't kill yourself or anything.There IS a light at the end of the tunnel.If you hold on a little longer I promise you you'll get to the light.Having come thus far with all the crap that's been thrown at you by life makes you undoubtedly one of the bravest people I will hopefully call my friend in a bit.It sucks so bad that you get treated like a load of rubbish and I bet you are one of the kindest,loveliest people,on the planet.jack1995,the world needs NEEDS people like you.There is a beautiful girl out there waiting for you and she will think the world of you and see the beauty in you that you fail to see in yourself.For her sake,you will be glad you didn't kill yourself when everything looked bleak.You know,good things have yet to come okay?Talk to me if a genuine friend is what you feel might help at this point.You should know that you are special and beautiful and awesome.Don't let this darkness win okay,because evil always tries it's best to win.Don't kill yourself,or harm yourself in anyway,Awesome human.Message me please and I will try to help in any way possible.

I have messaged you...:(

[dreamofdante]

Hang in there mate. Yes there is always a light at the end of the tunnel haha, even if its a long tunnel.

Okay...:(

[dreamofdante]

No please... Don't do that.
I'd like to bring your attention to sthg : there are people down here trying to help you, because they like you very much. But you don't seem to see them. Or maybe you don't want to see them ('cause they bore you), but in this case you act like you don't want the others to act.
Reconsider the idea that makes you think you're "alone with your sorrow" and look around you.
Good luck, hope it'll go fine.

I just feel so alone because it seems like everyone goes away.....

[HeyMrsTambourine]

I just feel so alone because it seems like everyone goes away.....

I don't know how people act with you.
Are you sure everyone goes away ? Are you sure you don't act like "everyone" ?
I just judge from what I see. And I encourage you to re-evaluate...

[dreamofdante]

I don't know how people act with you.
Are you sure everyone goes away ? Are you sure you don't act like "everyone" ?
I just judge from what I see. And I encourage you to re-evaluate...

Yeah maybe I'm a piece of shit like you're saying

[HeyMrsTambourine]

Yeah maybe I'm a piece of shit like you're saying

I emailed you.

[dreamofdante]

I emailed you.

I emailed back.......

[The Trendy Wolf]

I just feel so alone because it seems like everyone goes away.....

Don't always try so hard to find love and happiness. Eventually it will come to you, and it all starts with self-appreciation. You must find love for yourself before you seek love or completion in another person. You are a good person, and you don't deserve this.

You can't blame yourself for all of this because bad things just happen sometimes, even to good people.

We are all here to help you, so do not hesitate to express your feelings on here to relieve your pain. Things will get better.

[dreamofdante]

Don't always try so hard to find love and happiness. Eventually it will come to you, and it all starts with self-appreciation. You must find love for yourself before you seek love or completion in another person. You are a good person, and you don't deserve this.

You can't blame yourself for all of this because bad things just happen sometimes, even to good people.

We are all here to help you, so do not hesitate to express your feelings on here to relieve your pain. Things will get better.

Thank you Grant...

[Josef_]

Don't always try so hard to find love and happiness. Eventually it will come to you, and it all starts with self-appreciation. You must find love for yourself before you seek love or completion in another person. You are a good person, and you don't deserve this.

You can't blame yourself for all of this because bad things just happen sometimes, even to good people.

We are all here to help you, so do not hesitate to express your feelings on here to relieve your pain. Things will get better.

Oh no wonder you accepted all of that appreciation. :lol:

[The Trendy Wolf]

Thank you Grant...

No worries, I'm here to help you. :)

[dreamofdante]

No worries, I'm here to help you. :)

Thanks

[The Trendy Wolf]

Thanks

Any time :D