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[Seemyheart]

My brother hates me. for something I didnt do. and he is insisting on making my life a living h***... today I was told he was bad talking my birth mother... he said his birth mother is better bcz she actually met our adoptive parents and mine ddidn't. and he said my birth mother is a whore... and I'll grow up to be just like her.
He crossed a line. I always forgave him... I always just dealt with his hurtful words, but not this time. I can't. I can't stop crying... I need to cut... I need to just...clear my head. I'm so tired of this.
I'm hurting and nobody cares...
I feel hopeless, he makes me hate life, he makes me hate myself, he makes me want to cut. hard and deep...
My mom said he needs to stop and scolded him for like a minute then changed the subject to how his finals are going... wth!? he'll never stop. and im here suffering and that's all she does!
Really considering starting to cut again, that at least was an escape and made things bearable knowing I could..

[Blood]

My brother hates me. for something I didnt do. and he is insisting on making my life a living h***... today I was told he was bad talking my birth mother... he said his birth mother is better bcz she actually met our adoptive parents and mine ddidn't. and he said my birth mother is a whore... and I'll grow up to be just like her.
He crossed a line. I always forgave him... I always just dealt with his hurtful words, but not this time. I can't. I can't stop crying... I need to cut... I need to just...clear my head. I'm so tired of this.
I'm hurting and nobody cares...
I feel hopeless, he makes me hate life, he makes me hate myself, he makes me want to cut. hard and deep...
My mom said he needs to stop and scolded him for like a minute then changed the subject to how his finals are going... wth!? he'll never stop. and im here suffering and that's all she does!
Really considering starting to cut again, that at least was an escape and made things bearable knowing I could..

Hey Hun, everything is going to be alright, ok? Your brother is being an immature, hurtful person. Just try to ignore him. I know you can't help but let what he said get to you, but just know this: he isn't right. Just because your mother didn't meet your adoptive parents doesn't make her any worse than anybody else. Remember that. And whether or not she is a whore DEFINITELY doesn't determine whether or not you'll be one. You know one of the very few good things is about having a "hater"? Proving them wrong. You can be whatever type of person you want to be. Don't let him tell you who you are.

Cutting is not and won't ever be the answer. Don't even think about doing it. Find something to distract you; read, work out, shop, draw, listening to music, anything to keep you busy.

Stay strong. <3

[RavleIncarnate]

Yoor brother is an immature b**** who either is too dumb to understand or too s***** to understand boundaries. I suggest download and listen some kelly clarkson songs, like People Like Us or Stronger. Get the tear juices flowing, take a long bubble bath and just unwind. I've always been able to drown my sorrows in music.

[Katiya]

Wow, your brothers an ass. Nothing he said is true. And there is nothing wrong with your mother not meeting the parents. Its called closed adoption. Many many good people take that route and never meet the new parents. And who and what ever your mother was does not determine who you become. :)

Any how, if he were my brother I'd slap him silly. Can you talk to your mom about punishing him more because this hurts you so and he won't stop? Try it, if that doesn't work you can always hit him on the head with a mallet till he gets the point. :P

[Junaid30]

I think your suggestion would be helpful for me. I will let you know if this works for me Thanks and keep posting such a informative blogs.

[Seemyheart]

Wow, your brothers an ass. Nothing he said is true. And there is nothing wrong with your mother not meeting the parents. Its called closed adoption. Many many good people take that route and never meet the new parents. And who and what ever your mother was does not determine who you become. :)

Any how, if he were my brother I'd slap him silly. Can you talk to your mom about punishing him more because this hurts you so and he won't stop? Try it, if that doesn't work you can always hit him on the head with a mallet till he gets the point. :P

I can't hit him, he'll just hit me back... we've had issues with that before. And she knows how I feel but she just lectures and then gets over it. She said she's scheduling counseling sessions.
I'm just having a really hard time. He makes it hard to NOT relapse.

[Believe]

"Keep your head up, God gives his toughest battles to his strongest soldiers."

What your brother does to you isn't right, and makes him a terrible human being. The fact that he has to try and put you down to make himself feel better is not right at all and no person should ever do that to another. But the fact that he has to try and make you feel bad shows that he is jealous of you in some way and needs to make himself feel better. Most people that do that look for a reaction or to fight back. As hard as it is, from my experience acting like they don't even exist and ignoring every mean thing they say will eventually make him stop. It will take time, but most people like that will stop if they don't get the attention they are looking for. I don't know how old your brother is, but it will catch up with him; what goes around comes around. Karma always comes around, and when it does it will hit hard. You may not be there to see it, but it will happen.

Please don't take it out on yourself, don't let him dictate your life. Your life is yours, you write your own story. You don't deserve it. Do something that you love to help keep your mind off it.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bIJ1S3BrwH4

[Seemyheart]

"Keep your head up, God gives his toughest battles to his strongest soldiers."

What your brother does to you isn't right, and makes him a terrible human being. The fact that he has to try and put you down to make himself feel better is not right at all and no person should ever do that to another. But the fact that he has to try and make you feel bad shows that he is jealous of you in some way and needs to make himself feel better. Most people that do that look for a reaction or to fight back. As hard as it is, from my experience acting like they don't even exist and ignoring every mean thing they say will eventually make him stop. It will take time, but most people like that will stop if they don't get the attention they are looking for. I don't know how old your brother is, but it will catch up with him; what goes around comes around. Karma always comes around, and when it does it will hit hard. You may not be there to see it, but it will happen.

Please don't take it out on yourself, don't let him dictate your life. Your life is yours, you write your own story. You don't deserve it. Do something that you love to help keep your mind off it.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bIJ1S3BrwH4


He says horrible things about me to people at school...so they all hate me...
Thank you for your support, I'm just a little lost right now, looking for some kind of hope to hold onto
Thanks for the link, I love that song

[Believe]

He says horrible things about me to people at school...so they all hate me...
Thank you for your support, I'm just a little lost right now, looking for some kind of hope to hold onto
Thanks for the link, I love that song

People that are worthy of befriending or being acquaintances wont listen or believe what he says, and those who listen are as bad as he is. You'll get through it. I'm here if you need anything.

[Katiya]

Well I'd smack him anyway.... And if he hit back, well that would open up a nice opportunity for revenge...I'd say he beats me and bla blah bla to adults. That would get either you or him out of the house and it would not be a lie as he is a male hitting his sister. Its abuse whether or not you slap him for verbally abusing you or not. Two can always play his game. You just have to out think him. Its always an option if nothing else works and you want out of there.

But aside from that. You really have to have a talk about this with your parents and make them listen. If they don't tell someone at school what he does. Ask for help. It is so so wrong.