I'm a newbie to this forum

[losing_it]

guys i'm so glad I found this forum. I am having major issues, and I'm getting to the conclusion that its a mental disorder of some sort. I have anger problems for NOTHING. I can not even deal with people, or hang out with the many more. Talk about losing your friends. I stay away from them completely, I used to have lots of them until I realized that everyone pisses me off and I do see a reason to see people. I mean i have couple friends for distance friendship but other then that I dont care to associate with anyone. More like a loner. I also am a bit scared to associate with people b/c things come out of my mouth and I can not control it mean is all anger and i dont mean it but I can not stop it and I hurt people that way. I dont know what I should do but i'm a bit embarrassed to go to a doctor i feel like he can not help me even if he tried b/c he's not sitting inside my brain. But I came to this conclusion that I need some calming meds any idea if anything over the counter works to calm me down. I truly just like to hang out by myself. Is that weird or what?
anyone feel the same please fill me in. :)

[Kaleidoscope Eyes]

If you're getting angry about things you can identify (even if it's not something that would normally piss off anyone else) I'd suggest looking into anger management to work through it. If you get angry for what seems like no reason, I'd talk to your doctor, maybe see just a general shrink. I can't think of any disorders off of the top of my head that would make you angry all the time, but I'm sure some are out there. The doctor may not be "sitting inside your brain", but that's why you talk to him, so he can hear your point of view and try to figure things out. It could very well be worth a shot.

[losing_it]

So you are saying that bi-polar u get mood swings and you dont know even where they are coming from? U can not identify?
See any crazy thing I do i am aware I am doing it and for what, which makes no sense and people think I"m crazy and that I"m not "right up there" the correct terms they use. I know I have a problem just not sure what kind and how to deal with it. I wanted to take some calming medication b/c i'm going out of control being angry for no reason.
I do have schizophrenia in the family history. My mother was diagnosed with it many many years ago. Any sign if I can have it. I am a bit older the a teen lol but I couldnt find another forum and this was was great so I decided to join.