No Personality

[Mikedamaniak]

This problem has been depressing me for a while. I appear boring and lifeless. A long time ago, when I was little, I did have a personality, but it just faded away over the years. I don't know what's happening in my brain that caused this. Inside, I definitely have a personality, but it never shows on the outside. I tend to mirror the personalities of other people. When I talk to them, I sound just like them, use the same expressions. This sounds normal, for sure I've seen groups of friends who all talk like eachother and have the same manorisms, but my situation is not like that. I change my personality when with each different person I talk to. When I'm not talking to someone, which is almost always (my problem has rammed down my throat the habit of being shy, which I was not shy a long time ago) I have no personality. Everyone hates me for it. Iv'e overheard people say that I'm like zombie. I can't get them to understand that in my mind, I'm just like them and think a lot like them. I don't know how I will ever get a job, a group of friends who I can relate to, a girlfriend, and a life. I suppose something will eventually happen to me and change my life, but I'd rather not be a lazy bum and be that change myself, and I don't want to wait away the rest of my teen years for something to happen. I don't want to just keep riding through life, living in my head and on the internet. This is really depressing me, and I feel like an old man in a 14 year old's body.

[Blood]

I'm sorry to hear you're going through this.

The only thing I can think of that would help was if you found something you really like and enjoy doing. If you're doing something you love it's going to show in who you are. Find things that YOU enjoy doing. Don't worry about what other people do or don't like. Find something that makes you happy and go for it.

[Leaningonfaith]

I was like this for a time. I didn't understand how or why it had happened at the time, I just felt numb. For me, I simply have up. I didn't want to feel any longer and allowing myself to shut down like that had given me some sort of quiet. But it really was a empty, bitter, and lonely quiet. I got to the point where you are, wanting to change, and I became angry at myself for even becoming that person. I want from numb to bitter quickly, but it didn't help pull my personality back out, it sort of closed me off with a mask of irritation. Honestly, I thought I had no control over what was happening to me, that I had somehow done something to cause this and now there was no way of going back. It wasn't until I realized that I truly had control over it did I start to come alive again. I stopped believing that some imaginary force had held my personality captive and fought to break down those pesky barriers I had put up. I did things that the old me did, like taking time for myself and journaling in the mornings and praying. I started to pick up my favorite books and re read them. I struggled, and had been until very recently. I finally made up my mind that I wanted to be in control of myself again, and slowly I started to see little changes. It's not about some switch that flips your personality back on, its more about realizing you can gain control over yourself. That doesn't mean that you won't have off days or maybe even weeks, but that the majority of your life can be lived in peace and fun.

I don't know if this helped, or if it even made sense...but I hope it did. It was really scary for me when I lost control of myself and turned zombie like. Everyone was worried about me but didn't know why was wrong or how to even ask. I realize that I couldn't wait for someone to snap me out of it, and that I could do it myself. I couldn't tell you exactly how I gained control back, but looking back I can see it was when I believed that I could change.
I hope and pray you find yourself again!

[Katiya]

I pick up on peoples personality. Idk y. I just always have. And funny thing is if they have an accent I'll even pick that up within the first 3 minutes lol.

I'd probably be a great actor lol.

I hope you can find something you like, as this will bring great change to your life for the better.

[chezhans]

Do something you love. Be with people that love you. Don't live a lifeless life--in fact on the contrary, life will also be amazing if you take part in everything life has to offer. You may not have every talent in the world [for instance, sport is my real hate cos I'm no good at it]…however you must try everything. I lived the same life as your story for nearly two years, with severe depression the last six of those months.

YOU MUST CHANGE, THEN BE THE CHANGE AND THEN ACT UPON THAT CHANGE. All the very best to you :) PM me if you still have Qs

[silvafox]

I think I know the feeling bro. You gotta stop caring what other people think and just be yourself, that is your personality. If your concerned about mirroring other people's personality too much, why not watch tv shows or comedians or something similiar and try and pick up the little quirks and mannerisms of the really funny and popular people if you like?