No friends.

[went2far]

so currently i have no interaction with anyone apart from my family. i used to have one or two friends about 4 years ago but i dropped out of school. ive never had a problem with bullying. in September i started a collage (uk type of collage) and i was told by someone who was new at the school 4-5 years ago that she was told to just stay away from me. i have tried to make friends going to multiple clubs everyday of the week and i stopped because ive lost hope. i get pushed out of groups but in the literal sense, everyone will be in a circle and they will block me out and not talk to me ill try to talk and they will ignore me or they just try and walk away from me. ive got acute anxiety disorder and depression witch i take tablets for but its getting to the point were i wanna kill myself. i have attempted twice in my life already. ive never wanted to live since i was 5. when i was in year 1 i was going to stab myself with scissors. ive dropped out of education again because everything seems meaningless if i have nothing in my life to enjoy. i just want some friend.

[ksdnfkfr]

Have you ever tried being tested for a
social disorder like Asperger's syndrome?
Any time I hear a story like yours I can't help
but think Aspegers as I have autism myself and
know a lot about it and talk to a lot of ppl with it.

[Living For Love]

I don't know your age, but probably you shouldn't have dropped out of school. At least you could invest in your education, in your future career, and become a good profissional, whith financial independence from your parents, and living you own life without annyone boring you.

It's not your fault that people don't understand you. Everyone needs a friend, someone they can trust on, tell some secrets, ask for advice. You'll get find someone during your life that you can call your friend, but that will only happend if you don't give up. I know it's hard, but you must somehow stop having those suicidal thoughts, it just won't take you anywhere. Try to do something you really enjoy, find some kind of occupation, and then people will understand that you're a good person, and friends will start to arrive to your life. Just give it some time.

[rakiesands]

All im going to say is life is worth living. dont lose hope. /: use music(hardcore, metalcore) and anything to help you let your feelings lose. i like to listen to suicide silence when im down

[went2far]

Have you ever tried being tested for a
social disorder like Asperger's syndrome?
Any time I hear a story like yours I can't help
but think Aspegers as I have autism myself and
know a lot about it and talk to a lot of ppl with it.

I've never been tested for anything else apart from depression and social anxiety disorder (and epilepsy but that's got nothing to do with it). and i've always thought maybe i've got something like this but if i do ask to get tested doctors just say "no you don't have it". i do cognitive behavior therapy and i've asked her but she wont listen. Any suggestions?

[ksdnfkfr]

I've never been tested for anything else apart from depression and social anxiety disorder (and epilepsy but that's got nothing to do with it). and i've always thought maybe i've got something like this but if i do ask to get tested doctors just say "no you don't have it". i do cognitive behavior therapy and i've asked her but she wont listen. Any suggestions?

Based on what I've read on Wrong Planet which is an Asperger's
forum - it is not a good idea to ask to be tested specifically for AS.
It is better to just say something is wrong and let them try figuring
it out. Otherwise they will just think you are imagining you have it
because you read about it on the internet.
Like "oh god not another one, that dammed internet".

[went2far]

Based on what I've read on Wrong Planet which is an Asperger's
forum - it is not a good idea to ask to be tested specifically for AS.
It is better to just say something is wrong and let them try figuring
it out. Otherwise they will just think you are imagining you have it
because you read about it on the internet.
Like "oh god not another one, that dammed internet".

ok thanks for the advice