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[Barneytinsen]

so i think my depression is getting worse i just dont feel like coming to class anymore my "friends" just keep teasing on me and out of nowhere i punched one of my friend in the mouth. its like my anger management is getting worse too i cant control my self from hitting something or someone.So yeah after i punched him i just realized myself that im a piece of shit.im a dumbass in my class im considered the 'autistic'in my class and my "friends" just keep pushing me.And im still the bad guy in this one my friends is with my friend who i punched they just called me crazy.I just dont know what to do with my life yeah i like to tell someone at home but they just think im over reacting or some shit.i just wanna die and live another life or something...

[Dark Unicorn]

so i think my depression is getting worse i just dont feel like coming to class anymore my "friends" just keep teasing on me and out of nowhere i punched one of my friend in the mouth. its like my anger management is getting worse too i cant control my self from hitting something or someone.So yeah after i punched him i just realized myself that im a piece of shit.im a dumbass in my class im considered the 'autistic'in my class and my "friends" just keep pushing me.And im still the bad guy in this one my friends is with my friend who i punched they just called me crazy.I just dont know what to do with my life yeah i like to tell someone at home but they just think im over reacting or some shit.i just wanna die and live another life or something...

Hey Barney.It sucks that people there say you are overreacting when in actual fact you need help with getting treated.You probably hear this a lot and I know it sucks when it's you and you don't see it yourself but you are not a piece of sh**.You are awesome and amazing and beautiful and write now you have just lost your way.If you hang in there one day you'll find the right path and be glad that you didn't die when you wished to.I've always thought people that call other people dumbasses are the dumbasses themselves.Assuming that they call you this because you may not be very academically gifted,just always remember that people have different talents.You'll discover yours someday(if you don't already know it).If I were there I'd step out of my "ladylike shell" if you will,for a second and punch all those rude people for you;).Of course I'm not encouraging punching people but I fully understand the issue with your friend.You have a lot of anger in you(it seems to me) and the fact that you acknowledge that you need to keep your temper under control is the first step.Lastly,it will get better.Again,it sucks to here this but it's true.Maybe you could try your school's,guidance councillor or an anonymous hotline.Here is definitely a good start.If you need to talk, don't hesitate to message me.Take care!xo

[Barneytinsen]

Thanks!~ thats just what i needed :D

regarding the temper issue: yeah its like my "temper" meter just gets shorter everytime and when i punched my friend its like my reflexes just did it i didnt think of the situation or the consequence its like something or someone controlled me :confused:

but the depression part yeah i cheered up cause of your reply :yes: im just so silent today and i cant focus on my studies im getting mor anxious and stuff like that...