I'm so close...

[Gumleaf]

I'm broken and alone, broken hearted and feel like I have no purpose. I love loving and caring for people, I hate being destroyed by the same people. I put on a brave face and smile, nobody knows what is happening in my mind and heart. But on the inside i'm broken, unworthy and hated. When everyone looks at me, i'm smiling, when everyone looks away, i'm crying. I want what nearly everyone I know has. I want to be something to someone. Right now i'm nobody. I could quietly disappear and nobody would notice. I won't change who I am, I will still genuinely care for the people I care for, and love them too. But i'm so close to not being able to take it any longer. I'm so close to not believing anyone who might say they care about me. I'm so close to giving up.

[lassi]

The main problem with teenagers today (and I fall into this category) is that we are constantly comparing ourselves to those who are either more or less fortunate than us. Try to focus on what you do have instead of what you don't... easier said than done right? I have been in your position many times before and when it feels like I am running into one wall after another I just talk to someone. Usually whenever I am feeling down my best friend doesn't always know what to say but that's okay. All I ever really need is for someone to listen to me. I need to know that someone cares.
Just like you I care for people all the time, but there are rarely people out there for us to talk to. I get it.
With saying that, if you ever need someone to just listen message me. :)

[Gumleaf]

The main problem with teenagers today (and I fall into this category) is that we are constantly comparing ourselves to those who are either more or less fortunate than us. Try to focus on what you do have instead of what you don't... easier said than done right? I have been in your position many times before and when it feels like I am running into one wall after another I just talk to someone. Usually whenever I am feeling down my best friend doesn't always know what to say but that's okay. All I ever really need is for someone to listen to me. I need to know that someone cares.
Just like you I care for people all the time, but there are rarely people out there for us to talk to. I get it.
With saying that, if you ever need someone to just listen message me. :)
Thanks for understanding and replying. I appreciate it. :)