Might start again

[Captain Canada]

I promised a really close friend of mine that I would try and stop cutting. She cuts herself as well so she knows how it feels. I'm starting to like her and I don't know what to do about it. Its making me feel like a coward and I feel the urge to start cutting again... I've tried different things like playing guitar and other hobbies, but whenever I'm away I feel the urge again... Please help

[rociomx]

Dont do it!
Try some exercise, exercise with music, is fun.

[Believe]

Ive been clean for 2 days. They've been really difficult, considering I always overthink and think things to the point where I only feel negatively regardless of what happens. If there's one thing that i could change if i could it would be that i told people how i felt about them when i did. Im in college now, and there was a girl that i was madly in love with, but never told her or even spoke to her because i was so shy. Recently she messaged me on facebook telling me how she had a crush on me in highschool. Im in New York, her family moved and she goes to uni in California. I wish i wouldve taken the chance to be with her, because the regrets still eat away at me. As for the cutting, writing down everything thats going on in your head in a word document or something helps me a ton, considering thats why i cut to begin with. My advice, do whatever makes you feel at piece of mind and helps you enjoy life... Im here for you if you need to talk :)