xLonely0ne
February 9th, 2008, 04:16 AM
Hi again. :]
Recently, well, like.... 2 weeks ago, I posted on here about a boy who I've known for a while that I was like, in love with.
If you dont know what post I'm talking about, long story short; I've known this kid for like, ever. We've seemed to always have a thing for each other, and we're really close. I really, really do love him. He's my best friend, and I've had feelings for him for like, 3 years. There, to me, was always something there. We didnt just have that "hey wanna hangout" friends vibe. We talked about things normal "friends" wouldnt talk about. We even talked about there being an "us". He has had a girlfriend for a while, and she's a very crappy girlfriend. She's still in her attention whore phase, and so on. He came to me, spilled his heart out to me about this relationship, even at times told me he wished that I was her. He wish he would've asked me first, etcetc.
Him and her broke up.
He's asking me out now.
However, as much as I love him dearly, and would LOVE to, and I mean LOVE to more than ANYTHING to be with him, something is stopping me.
Reasons why I dont want to go out with him:
I dont know his friends, he doesnt really know mine.
[I moved, like 4 years ago, and he's the only "good" friend I've made]
This usually isnt a problem for most people, but for me, I'm a very strange girl. Around a bunch of people I dont know, especially when, I'm embarassed to say this =(... an attractive girl, I tend to lock up, get self conscious, and really quiet. This would be quite embarassing on my part... to be some quiet weirdo around a bunch of people, ya know? Yeah, that's weird, but that's just how I am.
I'm afraid that he will leave me if she wants him back.
They were together for almost 2 years, he loved her, and to an extent, she loved him. He would do ANYTHING for her. I mean ANYTHING. Not exaggerating. If she came to his house and told him to never talk to me again, he'd do it. He even said to me himself, 'all of you guys are awesome, but when it comes to Marissa...', yeah. If that happens, I dont know what I'd do. I'd rather just avoid the situation entirely.
He'll fall way too fast and way too hard.
When him and Marissa were going out for like, 5 months, he was on some suicidal-ness when she started getting all crazy. Partying, drinking, excessive flirting etc.. having to go through that, if it were me, and my ex started doing that, and all of the sudden i started going out with someone who didnt, i'd fall a little hard =/. And I dont want to cause anymore damage.
Reasons why I do?
He is amazing. He is the most amazing guy I know.
He knows how to treat someone, he's a sweetie, he's adorable, he's funny, he's artistic, he's daring, he's just everything I could ever ask for.
He honestly, had me cracking up after my dog died and I was just extremely depressed. He got me out of that.
He's just.... amazing to say the least.
I really dont know what to do...
advice?
=/
Recently, well, like.... 2 weeks ago, I posted on here about a boy who I've known for a while that I was like, in love with.
If you dont know what post I'm talking about, long story short; I've known this kid for like, ever. We've seemed to always have a thing for each other, and we're really close. I really, really do love him. He's my best friend, and I've had feelings for him for like, 3 years. There, to me, was always something there. We didnt just have that "hey wanna hangout" friends vibe. We talked about things normal "friends" wouldnt talk about. We even talked about there being an "us". He has had a girlfriend for a while, and she's a very crappy girlfriend. She's still in her attention whore phase, and so on. He came to me, spilled his heart out to me about this relationship, even at times told me he wished that I was her. He wish he would've asked me first, etcetc.
Him and her broke up.
He's asking me out now.
However, as much as I love him dearly, and would LOVE to, and I mean LOVE to more than ANYTHING to be with him, something is stopping me.
Reasons why I dont want to go out with him:
I dont know his friends, he doesnt really know mine.
[I moved, like 4 years ago, and he's the only "good" friend I've made]
This usually isnt a problem for most people, but for me, I'm a very strange girl. Around a bunch of people I dont know, especially when, I'm embarassed to say this =(... an attractive girl, I tend to lock up, get self conscious, and really quiet. This would be quite embarassing on my part... to be some quiet weirdo around a bunch of people, ya know? Yeah, that's weird, but that's just how I am.
I'm afraid that he will leave me if she wants him back.
They were together for almost 2 years, he loved her, and to an extent, she loved him. He would do ANYTHING for her. I mean ANYTHING. Not exaggerating. If she came to his house and told him to never talk to me again, he'd do it. He even said to me himself, 'all of you guys are awesome, but when it comes to Marissa...', yeah. If that happens, I dont know what I'd do. I'd rather just avoid the situation entirely.
He'll fall way too fast and way too hard.
When him and Marissa were going out for like, 5 months, he was on some suicidal-ness when she started getting all crazy. Partying, drinking, excessive flirting etc.. having to go through that, if it were me, and my ex started doing that, and all of the sudden i started going out with someone who didnt, i'd fall a little hard =/. And I dont want to cause anymore damage.
Reasons why I do?
He is amazing. He is the most amazing guy I know.
He knows how to treat someone, he's a sweetie, he's adorable, he's funny, he's artistic, he's daring, he's just everything I could ever ask for.
He honestly, had me cracking up after my dog died and I was just extremely depressed. He got me out of that.
He's just.... amazing to say the least.
I really dont know what to do...
advice?
=/