RIP_banana
February 9th, 2008, 02:09 AM
hey everyone. i am not sure what i am doing here but i thought since my sister came on here a lot maybe i would find some comfort aswell.
i am not actually "banana" shannyn, as that would be quite impossible, i am her sister.
as some of yous might probably already know my sister was "banana" and she had very bad eating disordas. and she started a post in the eating disorda section "really stressed out." (feel free to read it for the story.) but long story short she died. :( i am really not feeling good at all. i mean yer we knew she wasnt doing too well since she went to hospital but then once she was in therer for like 3 days we thought she started to do quite well. but now i know that she was not doing well no where near as much as what she let on. i came on here the day after she died and i read her post and her messages and it made me feel sooooo sad. she was not good at all. she had litteraly givin up. she had no will at all.
telling everyone on here how much pain and hurt she was in, but she never told me or my family. and that kills me, because i do believe that that people made her stronger for a couple of days but no one could reall do much then that. i only wish that she told me so i could of helped her. i am total dispear. the thing i read about what she wrote to some people mainly to "plop" saying that she had givin up and that there is no more that she can do and she has nothing left to give is really killing me. i do believe that that may be the reason she died because she gave up on herself and gave up on her body. i know only weighing 29 kilos os very hard to live with but i believe that if she kept going and eating she would still be with me here today. and i wouldnt be feeling the way i am now.
i am sorry for this big long thing but i needed to get things off my chest and this is the only place i could thing of.
:(:mad::(:mad::(:mad::(:mad:
i am not actually "banana" shannyn, as that would be quite impossible, i am her sister.
as some of yous might probably already know my sister was "banana" and she had very bad eating disordas. and she started a post in the eating disorda section "really stressed out." (feel free to read it for the story.) but long story short she died. :( i am really not feeling good at all. i mean yer we knew she wasnt doing too well since she went to hospital but then once she was in therer for like 3 days we thought she started to do quite well. but now i know that she was not doing well no where near as much as what she let on. i came on here the day after she died and i read her post and her messages and it made me feel sooooo sad. she was not good at all. she had litteraly givin up. she had no will at all.
telling everyone on here how much pain and hurt she was in, but she never told me or my family. and that kills me, because i do believe that that people made her stronger for a couple of days but no one could reall do much then that. i only wish that she told me so i could of helped her. i am total dispear. the thing i read about what she wrote to some people mainly to "plop" saying that she had givin up and that there is no more that she can do and she has nothing left to give is really killing me. i do believe that that may be the reason she died because she gave up on herself and gave up on her body. i know only weighing 29 kilos os very hard to live with but i believe that if she kept going and eating she would still be with me here today. and i wouldnt be feeling the way i am now.
i am sorry for this big long thing but i needed to get things off my chest and this is the only place i could thing of.
:(:mad::(:mad::(:mad::(:mad: