Jehy
December 2nd, 2013, 03:41 AM
Ok so introduction:
I'm 15, Home Schooled, live a fairly decent life buut I'm way behind in school, I was taken out of school and moved into distant ed 9 years ago and it wasn't really my choice but my mother felt I wasn't learning. Soo for years after that I did work on paper and sent in, then I kinda moved more and more towards using the computer only, in grade 8 or so I was completely on the computer, and I wasn't really watched over, I got my own corner with my laptop where I could work without being closely monitored. After that I would start working ahead then playing a computer game then going back to school. Then I started playing a computer game and then catching up in school, I finished Grade 8 without too much of a struggle getting everything done.
Grade 9:
so in this year I moved to this new system where I could submit my work whenever online and there was not really any showing it to anyone. Being how the previous year I managed to get all my work done in a little amount of time, I took grade 9 linear and got fuck all done in the first half of the year. In the second the teachers started calling home and asking why they saw so little and I ended up finishing the year by getting some 60'/%ish mark due to half of pretty much all the courses being incomplete. Oh and then I didnt get ANY science done. Then during the summer I was supposed to do science during the evenings... which i didn't. (Don't worry though I got screamed at for that one lol)
Grade 10 (where im at now):
So in the beginning of the year I was given the option to continue with distant ed school or go back to public.. Lets face it I've been doing this kind of schooling for 9 years you think I'm just gonna jump into public? Tests being put on the spot, I cant write fast but I can type. In addition I still have that grade 9 science to do so I didn't want to be the person taking courses from the previous year. Oh and in that video game bit, Yeah since grade 8 I've become part of an online community there and made lots of online friends, I'm not about to leave all that. Sooo I stuck with distant ed. Now its Dec, I've got 1/9 math units done and 1/5 English units done.. THAT'S IT. I haven't started in grade 9 science even.
Whenever I think about how far behind I am though I start to just panic and do something that takes my mind off it, like game or chat. When I do accuialy get work done its because im being pressured. Like litrally screamed at by parents. I don't want it to take that much to get me to work.
When I try to work on my own I get like two lines done then say Well look at all I've accomplished compared to most days then go back to wasting my time. This only happens if I randomly feel motivated to do it too which is once every week? If I start to think about it and begin to panic, Sometimes when I do start working or even try to start working I see the scrambled page that is my school work and don't know where to start unless I got my mind at ease or if I'm being pressured. Fortunately this dosn't apply for everything, like I was able to complete some life guard courses doing best in class a few weeks ago.
Oh yeah so my parents mostly think I'm just slow with my work, so I'm confined to my computer to this so-called school work thing. I want to be able to get a job so I can save up for a car or something, I want to keep my friends and remain in the online community I managed to become part of. I wish I could just plain enjoy the work but it hurts my head just to think about.. Anybody got any advice for where I can even start with my mess >.>
I'm 15, Home Schooled, live a fairly decent life buut I'm way behind in school, I was taken out of school and moved into distant ed 9 years ago and it wasn't really my choice but my mother felt I wasn't learning. Soo for years after that I did work on paper and sent in, then I kinda moved more and more towards using the computer only, in grade 8 or so I was completely on the computer, and I wasn't really watched over, I got my own corner with my laptop where I could work without being closely monitored. After that I would start working ahead then playing a computer game then going back to school. Then I started playing a computer game and then catching up in school, I finished Grade 8 without too much of a struggle getting everything done.
Grade 9:
so in this year I moved to this new system where I could submit my work whenever online and there was not really any showing it to anyone. Being how the previous year I managed to get all my work done in a little amount of time, I took grade 9 linear and got fuck all done in the first half of the year. In the second the teachers started calling home and asking why they saw so little and I ended up finishing the year by getting some 60'/%ish mark due to half of pretty much all the courses being incomplete. Oh and then I didnt get ANY science done. Then during the summer I was supposed to do science during the evenings... which i didn't. (Don't worry though I got screamed at for that one lol)
Grade 10 (where im at now):
So in the beginning of the year I was given the option to continue with distant ed school or go back to public.. Lets face it I've been doing this kind of schooling for 9 years you think I'm just gonna jump into public? Tests being put on the spot, I cant write fast but I can type. In addition I still have that grade 9 science to do so I didn't want to be the person taking courses from the previous year. Oh and in that video game bit, Yeah since grade 8 I've become part of an online community there and made lots of online friends, I'm not about to leave all that. Sooo I stuck with distant ed. Now its Dec, I've got 1/9 math units done and 1/5 English units done.. THAT'S IT. I haven't started in grade 9 science even.
Whenever I think about how far behind I am though I start to just panic and do something that takes my mind off it, like game or chat. When I do accuialy get work done its because im being pressured. Like litrally screamed at by parents. I don't want it to take that much to get me to work.
When I try to work on my own I get like two lines done then say Well look at all I've accomplished compared to most days then go back to wasting my time. This only happens if I randomly feel motivated to do it too which is once every week? If I start to think about it and begin to panic, Sometimes when I do start working or even try to start working I see the scrambled page that is my school work and don't know where to start unless I got my mind at ease or if I'm being pressured. Fortunately this dosn't apply for everything, like I was able to complete some life guard courses doing best in class a few weeks ago.
Oh yeah so my parents mostly think I'm just slow with my work, so I'm confined to my computer to this so-called school work thing. I want to be able to get a job so I can save up for a car or something, I want to keep my friends and remain in the online community I managed to become part of. I wish I could just plain enjoy the work but it hurts my head just to think about.. Anybody got any advice for where I can even start with my mess >.>