jesusogpaign
December 2nd, 2013, 02:26 AM
So, I met this girl at a concert. She was hella cute. She thought I was hella cute (even though I don't think I am). We started talking, we hung out a week after the concert. We realized that we both really liked eachother, and started dating. That happened for a while, and I was having feelings for her that I've never had before. I've had girlfriends in the past, and had some I really cared for but never like this. I was/am in love.
She lives in another town about an hour's drive away, and her parents wouldn't want her dating an older guy (me). Because of this, our chances to be together or go out are kind of limited. This is fine, because we are together whenever we can be, and we love eachother, so something like this wouldn't stop us.
But just the other day, after not hearing from her for a few days (which was weird, we usually talk all the time), I get a text saying she's gotten her phone taken away for two or four or an uncertain amount of weeks. Now, this wouldn't be a big deal, just an inconvenience, except that's the only mode of communication we have. If she doesn't have her phone, I have no way to contact her. She doesn't have a facebook or twitter or anything, so I can't contact her there, and I was dumb and didn't think to get her best friend's cell number, so now I'm lost.
This has been stressing me out to no end since I got the text. It happened out of nowhere, and now I can't stop worrying about her, and how she's probably worrying about me. I don't know what I should be doing to deal with this, but I am just a ball of anxiety. I've tried to find one of her friends on twitter or facebook, but wasn't able to find them. I don't know what to do, except drive out there and try to sneak in through her window (which would be romantic as fuck, but likely wouldn't work/might look like robbery and get me arrested or shot).
I don't know why I'm posting this here, maybe you could help me, or maybe just writing it down would help me.
She also has a history of self-harm, and attempts at suicide, and I have depression myself, so I know how much of an effect this kind of emotional pain could have on her. I know we both promised eachother that we wouldn't self harm, and I would be there for her if she ever felt the need to cut or had thoughts of suicide, but now I'm not, and I don't know what to do.
She lives in another town about an hour's drive away, and her parents wouldn't want her dating an older guy (me). Because of this, our chances to be together or go out are kind of limited. This is fine, because we are together whenever we can be, and we love eachother, so something like this wouldn't stop us.
But just the other day, after not hearing from her for a few days (which was weird, we usually talk all the time), I get a text saying she's gotten her phone taken away for two or four or an uncertain amount of weeks. Now, this wouldn't be a big deal, just an inconvenience, except that's the only mode of communication we have. If she doesn't have her phone, I have no way to contact her. She doesn't have a facebook or twitter or anything, so I can't contact her there, and I was dumb and didn't think to get her best friend's cell number, so now I'm lost.
This has been stressing me out to no end since I got the text. It happened out of nowhere, and now I can't stop worrying about her, and how she's probably worrying about me. I don't know what I should be doing to deal with this, but I am just a ball of anxiety. I've tried to find one of her friends on twitter or facebook, but wasn't able to find them. I don't know what to do, except drive out there and try to sneak in through her window (which would be romantic as fuck, but likely wouldn't work/might look like robbery and get me arrested or shot).
I don't know why I'm posting this here, maybe you could help me, or maybe just writing it down would help me.
She also has a history of self-harm, and attempts at suicide, and I have depression myself, so I know how much of an effect this kind of emotional pain could have on her. I know we both promised eachother that we wouldn't self harm, and I would be there for her if she ever felt the need to cut or had thoughts of suicide, but now I'm not, and I don't know what to do.