No way out...

[BADdies]

Hello. I'm new at this forum and I'm still learning so don't get mad if I did something wrong. Before I start, I'd like to apologize for bad grammar because English is not my first language.

So...I've been bullied for 2 years. I had absolutely no friends. Y'know what else gets with bulling: bad appetite, bad marks, depression etc. To get it worse I had very bad relationship with my parents, we were arguing everyday at least 5 times per day. Only Bryan Adams' songs and tv show Friends could make me smile. It's so sad when tv show or songs are your only friends. One day I met a girl on some forum for dogs owners. She saved me <3

Few reasons why I was bullied: I love rock/hard rock, I like '80s fashion/hairstyles/music/everything. I love motorbikes and football (or soccer) to be honest, I'm a man in a girls body. I even wanna have abs (and I got 'em) I'm just different...

Now when I finally thought I was happy with my life, it's just gettin' worse and worse. I've always had that feeling like something will happen to my brother 'cuz he has a great life. I had BLOODY feeling. last month we found out that he's been very sick for years. I'm so scared. I don't even go to church or pray any more, I feel like God let me down. To things get worse, I had a bad argue with my bff (the one from the forum) now she doesn't even want to hear for me. She blocked me on facebook, she doesn't answer on mobile calls/messages.
At new school some students told be I'm ugly and I haven't ever got a boyfriend.
Still, I have that one best friend who I've known since I was 4 years old. Since last year I caught myself thinking about her...it wouldn't be that bad if I wasn't imagine how should I kiss her. Now I'm starting to think about question "Am I gay?"

I'm lost in this world where bad things are just surrounding me. :( Sometimes I pretend like everything is fine, but I can't, I can't hide a bloody pain.

[DarkKnight1812]

I could relate to some of the stuff you said
Such as the only friends is things we can't interact. Mine was harry potter Star Wars and etc. but when I started high school things it better because I found my crowd of people. I say you should give it time and I also meant people through sports and some respected the things I liked and some just though I was a nerd. Well about the "gay" thing I'm not sure because I never got those kinda thoughts all I could say is do what you think yoy want. If you want a girlfriend then go for it and only experiencing it will tell if you like girls or guys I guess lol. But over time things get better trust me

[lassi]

I also can relate to some of the stuff you said. Mostly about being bullied and suffering from depression. I feel like the best advice I can say is to not give up. I know sometimes it feels like you're running into one wall after another but really how long will that keep going? Try not to dwell on the depressing aspects of your life.
As for the people who are saying bad things about you forget them. If someone doesn't like the way you look or dress well then that is their personal problem! All you need to do is to continue to walk with confidence and let those people know that you don't care what they think about you.
As teenager it's natural to question your sexuality. Just remember to love yourself.
And try to think positive. Things can only get better from here :)
if you ever want to talk about whatever is bothering you feel free to message me.

[Synyster Shadows]

First off, your grammar is really good for someone whose first language is not English. :)
To the point, it gets better, but only if you believe that it does and if you try. Don't listen to what people say about you. Who are they to judge you? Be yourself and be happy about it. Those reasons why you're bullied? Worthless. And honestly, I think you're cool. You break a lot of gender stereotypes, which is probably what causes people to insult you, but it makes you unique and interesting. Be proud of those things. Y'know what? Everyone's different. No people are exactly alike. You sound like a cool person and they should not be insulting for your interests, or anything, for that matter.
About that friend, let her go. She doesn't want to talk to you. Sorry but there's no other way to say it. It's tough but you have to move on with your life and not let her slow you down.
So what if they say you're ugly? Looks aren't everything. A person's personality is what really matters.
Finally, I honestly can't answer the question of whether or not you're gay. It could just be a phase. Who knows? Just see where your feelings take you. You might discover that it was just a phase. You could discover you're gay. You could be bi. You could be a lot of things. Only time will tell.
Hope this helps. Good luck with everything and I'm so sorry you've had to go through this. Keep your head up. :)

[Dark Hatred]

Hello. I'm new at this forum and I'm still learning so don't get mad if I did something wrong. Before I start, I'd like to apologize for bad grammar because English is not my first language.

So...I've been bullied for 2 years. I had absolutely no friends. Y'know what else gets with bulling: bad appetite, bad marks, depression etc. To get it worse I had very bad relationship with my parents, we were arguing everyday at least 5 times per day. Only Bryan Adams' songs and tv show Friends could make me smile. It's so sad when tv show or songs are your only friends. One day I met a girl on some forum for dogs owners. She saved me <3

Few reasons why I was bullied: I love rock/hard rock, I like '80s fashion/hairstyles/music/everything. I love motorbikes and football (or soccer) to be honest, I'm a man in a girls body. I even wanna have abs (and I got 'em) I'm just different...

Now when I finally thought I was happy with my life, it's just gettin' worse and worse. I've always had that feeling like something will happen to my brother 'cuz he has a great life. I had BLOODY feeling. last month we found out that he's been very sick for years. I'm so scared. I don't even go to church or pray any more, I feel like God let me down. To things get worse, I had a bad argue with my bff (the one from the forum) now she doesn't even want to hear for me. She blocked me on facebook, she doesn't answer on mobile calls/messages.
At new school some students told be I'm ugly and I haven't ever got a boyfriend.
Still, I have that one best friend who I've known since I was 4 years old. Since last year I caught myself thinking about her...it wouldn't be that bad if I wasn't imagine how should I kiss her. Now I'm starting to think about question "Am I gay?"

I'm lost in this world where bad things are just surrounding me. :( Sometimes I pretend like everything is fine, but I can't, I can't hide a bloody pain.


I am going to be straight with you, OK? If you don't want truth don't read.

Life sucks. People can say "It'll get better" or "Everything is gonna be OK eventually"...Eventually?? When, when you're dead?!

Now that I have you thinking, "What the fuck kind of advice is this fucker gonna give me?" Let me talk with you.

People that say things to try to make you feel better are LAIRS. People just have a way of saying things to cope when life is hard. But I am gonna say this, it's kind of a broad statement but, here goes; a lot of people feel like shit all the time. You are not alone. Some are better at hiding it than others. People all around you feel awful like everything is going wrong but don't show it. It CAN get better, however.

Life isn't just going to resolve itself out. Not everybody is going to like you. I am going to guess that you are in high school - which is gonna be tough. Now here I am only 13 telling you this, but just hear me out. In schools, high school, middle school, even elementary you are in a small environment with a limited amount of people to be friends with. FIND the people with common interests as you. You DO NOT have to hang out with the "popular kids." Popularity is all a big fat fucking joke. NOBODY GIVES A SHIT in the real world how fucking popular you were in high school. IT DOES NOT FUCKING MATTER. All those preppy little bitch girls who get everything handed to them have another thing coming.

When you get to college, there will be a lot more people who you can make friends with. Also, in college, there is more going on I would think so probably less social time.

All in all, heres what I want you to know. Im only 13 but I want to help you. I have had friends kill themselves. It's hard. Very hard. But I never want that to happen again. NEVER end your life, especially so young - you can do something with your life and make it better. It won't just "resolve itself", you have to do something about it. YOU CAN DO IT!



x someotherguy

[StoppingTime]

I am going to be straight with you, OK? If you don't want truth don't read.


Excellent way to start. Your word is apparently gospel.




People that say things to try to make you feel better are LAIRS. People just have a way of saying things to cope when life is hard. But I am gonna say this, it's kind of a broad statement but, here goes; a lot of people feel like shit all the time.

Right here. See this? This isn't helpful. When someone feels like shit it doesn't matter how anyone else feels. It's hard to believe but people can and should be selfish about how they feel. If they aren't doing well, it doesn't matter that other people are in the 'same boat' because that's not actually helping their situation at all.


You are not alone. Some are better at hiding it than others. People all around you feel awful like everything is going wrong but don't show it. It CAN get better, however.

...And? Does that mean that it's okay to feel like that? That it doesn't matter because "Everyone does?" And here's a secret, no two people feel the same. It's cliché, but everyone really is different.


Life isn't just going to resolve itself out. Not everybody is going to like you. I am going to guess that you are in high school - which is gonna be tough. Now here I am only 13 telling you this, but just hear me out. In schools, high school, middle school, even elementary you are in a small environment with a limited amount of people to be friends with. FIND the people with common interests as you. You DO NOT have to hang out with the "popular kids."

That's not what the OP is saying at all? They're saying they don't seem to fit in anywhere, not that they want to hang out with the 'popular kids' and get rejected.


Popularity is all a big fat fucking joke. NOBODY GIVES A SHIT in the real world how fucking popular you were in high school. IT DOES NOT FUCKING MATTER.

Now just think for a second, is this really going to solve anything? That's like saying, "Oh well high school doesn't matter, it's only four years and then you're out into the world." Well guess what, nobody deserves to have to have a shitty four years of high school because "it doesn't matter." It might not matter to you, but I think you're just in a very different situation from the OP and are giving them advice from someone who's well off and doesn't need to worry about this, and isn't really in their place. They aren't asking about popularity, they're asking just how to be friends and socialize with people. There couldn't be a bigger difference


All those preppy little bitch girls who get everything handed to them have another thing coming.

You realize not all "popular" people are like this yeah?

When you get to college, there will be a lot more people who you can make friends with. Also, in college, there is more going on I would think so probably less social time.

Like you said, you're 13. It's a long way to college from 13, 14, 15, 16, even 17. Looking to college to solve problems in high school just makes for a shittier time in high school. Fix the problems (or try to) before looking to the future to just fix them for you.

[Dark Hatred]

Excellent way to start. Your word is apparently gospel.



Right here. See this? This isn't helpful. When someone feels like shit it doesn't matter how anyone else feels. It's hard to believe but people can and should be selfish about how they feel. If they aren't doing well, it doesn't matter that other people are in the 'same boat' because that's not actually helping their situation at all.



...And? Does that mean that it's okay to feel like that? That it doesn't matter because "Everyone does?" And here's a secret, no two people feel the same. It's cliché, but everyone really is different.



That's not what the OP is saying at all? They're saying they don't seem to fit in anywhere, not that they want to hang out with the 'popular kids' and get rejected.



Now just think for a second, is this really going to solve anything? That's like saying, "Oh well high school doesn't matter, it's only four years and then you're out into the world." Well guess what, nobody deserves to have to have a shitty four years of high school because "it doesn't matter." It might not matter to you, but I think you're just in a very different situation from the OP and are giving them advice from someone who's well off and doesn't need to worry about this, and isn't really in their place. They aren't asking about popularity, they're asking just how to be friends and socialize with people. There couldn't be a bigger difference



You realize not all "popular" people are like this yeah?



Like you said, you're 13. It's a long way to college from 13, 14, 15, 16, even 17. Looking to college to solve problems in high school just makes for a shittier time in high school. Fix the problems (or try to) before looking to the future to just fix them for you.



Ok, you have your opinions. But, I did NOT say "Oh well, high school doesn't matter", I said that POPULARITY in high school doesn't matter. Understand what I am saying before you bash it.

I am not looking to get in an argument here. You have your opinions, which I respect, and I have mine.

[BADdies]

You guys are great. Thank you so much for all these supporting words/posts. Anyway, my pet died on my birthday few weeks ago :( it broke my heart. But you guys really made me a bit happier and special. Thank you <3

[Katiya]

Ok, you have your opinions. But I did NOT say "Oh well, high school doesn't matter", I said that POPULARITY in high school doesn't matter. Understand what I am saying before you bash it.

I am not looking to get in an argument here. You have your opinions, which I respect, and I have mine.

Uh, no offense but your advice on this forum so far has been quite sub par.

And your opinion doesn't matter. Least not in helping the op that is. This iisn't the place to come and post Your opinion just for the sake of making the argument. For instance my opinion could be that your being an ass but I dont get into my opinions because its not helping the op. Its about helping the op and others. So if you disagree with the op then just go elsewhere like the rest of us when we disagree with an ops lifestyle and or feelings. Feelings are personal and for that person to feel or decide, not us.

I'll second stopping time on this. Sorry man, but you just don't seam to have an idea about any of this. :(

You guys are great. Thank you so much for all these supporting words/posts. Anyway, my pet died on my birthday few weeks ago :( it broke my heart. But you guys really made me a bit happier and special. Thank you <3

Were certainly here for you! :)

And I've wondered the gay question about my self for years until I figured out I'm asexual. Not saying you are but anyhow your not the only one that wonders. However we will both likely meet our dream guy or girl at some point in our lives. I expect when you meet this person you just know, and that you are great friends.

I've been bullied in school too. What worked for me was well act like your so better than them lol. And punching them always worked but uh,...best not to go that rout less you want legal troubles. Less you think they might actually hurt you, then its self defense.

I like much the same music as you and some of the styles too I'm sure. I've never fit into a box, and I like it that way. Just be your self and you will eventually find real friends who like you for you.

And don't mind about grammar. Most of Americans stink at it :p shoot even im too lazy when on this phone of mine lol. I had no problem understanding your post.

[BADdies]

I need help...again...

I've told you about my brother...he'll probably go to operation next month.
I've always been jealous at him but it wasn't anything bad, I mean, he's 7 years older and when I was a kid I didn't understand some things. But now? I can't take it any more! Since we found out for his disease my parents are around him all the time. I understand that but for the love of God he can help me sometimes. I have to do all stuff in the house all by my own, when parents come home they always ask him "Honey/dear/sweety...how are you/do you want something....?" and nobody cares about me. When I ask him to help me they tell me "leave him alone" few days ago my dad bought him a breakfast but not to me, my mom buys me new clothes but she thinks she'll solve the problem. It's really not about buying, it's about being second child..if you understand me. I hate myself anyway but this kills me even more plus I'm angry at my self coz I'm jealous. I can't eat, I can't sleep, I can't even talk to my parents about anything coz I don't trust them...
Is something wrong with me?