Downwards again

[Blackisme]

I guess I'm alright, I've stopped haven't I ? Well no I'm just kidding myself when the holidays over I will see it as safe without the risk of getting caught again and start its only a matter of time, so why should I kid myself why do I try and I better when I know I can't, ugh life is-is horrible I only realise I'm faking the smiles I'm faking my laugh when I get alone and actually think about it, I'm a joke, a pity full sad joke.
Someone please tell me what the hell is wrong with me and why I'm just numb again why does this happen :'(

[lightPainting]

you need to meditate. find a quite place to be and just try to clear your mind.

[Katiya]

There's nothing wrong with you. Your just going through a hard time. Eventually you should get over it for the most part. If not you can talk to someone or try meds if that interested you.

Try de-stressing your life. That helped me Tremendously! Get out of bad uncomfortable situations in life. Anything from a relationship to a group or school classes. Ask your self, how much good they do and how much bad. And if the good they do is only to fix the problems they caused in the first place.

[Katiya]

Double post :(

[Katiya]

Tripple post! Grrr!