Confusion, you tricky conniving snake bastard!

[Mob Boss]

I came out as full on les a while back; and after lengthy contemplation, both while watching the Ellen show and while reminiscing, I came to the conclusion that it seemed plausible, even natural! However, both to my dismay and pleasure -- because of the great feelings I've been experiencing -- I've found myself hopping on the confusion train. I've found myself with this GINORMOUS crush on a guy at work. It's not a fleeting one. In fact, my feelings are progressing supernaturally strong and quickly! Have I thought about carrying his babes in my womb? Well, if I'm being brutally honest and creepy here.... uh, Yeah. I'm not here to discuss my maternal clock, however, nor my creepy self. I talk to this guy CONSTANTLAAAAAAAY. And I try to look good for him, I get butterflies (sick, right?) when he's talking to me, and I find him fucking attractive (pardon my Swahili). We connect on so many levels and being around him makes me feel delicate and feminine and everything is so natural. I don't even see anyone else when we're talking or at all, really. I felt comfortable enough to come out to him. And the other day when I was walking to my car and he was with me, I had the most overpowering urge to kiss him. I didn't because A) He thinks I'm les and would probably pass out from confusion and hit his head on the damp, dirty parking lot pavement and that would be his demise. B) I'm pretty sure my breath smelled like the very flat Sprite drink I was drinking, and that wouldn't have been cute (Fact: I now load my pockets with Wintergreen mints should such occurrences arise again). C) I'd never make the first move and he NEVER will because he thinks I'm gayer than a 2 dollar bill. (Which I also thought was the case). I thought I fancied Nancys. Now I'm thinking...... hell, I have no clue what I'm thinking. I even watched ROMANTIC movies today and nearly started singing Celine Dion in stores.

What the GENTLY CARESS is going on here?! I'm in urgent need of Dr. Phil.

[Wonder.]

I'm sure you've heard it before: sexuality isn't black and white. Everyone has the possibility of liking someone of a gender (or non-gender) that they thought they never would. I consider myself an asexual homosexual, but that doesn't mean I've never had a crush on a girl. If you really like him, you should go for it. Just tell him you like him and explain how sexuality is always a grey area.

Of course, it is possible that you could fall more under the category of bi, but from your story, you seem pretty lesbian-y.

[Lil.k8]

gay and straight are the extremes on the scale people fall somewhere inbetween. being gay or stright just means you typically prefer it

[jessicaann]

People are turned on to individual people. Its wonderful that you can identify and be open to such wide variety of good features in people. I don't think that's odd at all.

I guess I'm bi. I can want both girls and guys - but totally differently. I love it and go with us.
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