Venom.
November 26th, 2013, 03:56 AM
I'm 18 now, in my previous thread I was 14. I overcame autophobia at 16, and it's nothing but a distant memory now thankfully.
When I was 7 I had a traumatic experience when I was home alone, it's nothing serious like rape or anything like that though. I wrote about it in my previous thread..which is pretty funny to read:
http://www.virtualteen.org/forums/showthread.php?t=65828
So, yeah, my autophobia was pretty bad. The way I overcame it? Well, I became an atheist in my late 16s thanks to the internet. It took time and mental healing, and some days I still have small anxiety about things like ghosts, but it's very rare for this to happen and it doesn't affect my life anymore at all. I can actually lay in my bed in complete darkness and sleep now, it's liberating. When I had autophobia my heart would be beating out of anxiety while I was trying to sleep. Every noise I heard scared me immensely and the lights were always on. I prayed hard every night and read the bible to ask my god to please help me. It was mental torture to try to sleep, and sometimes I heard or saw things. Of course now I know all this was just paranoia and my scumbag brain making delusions, but at the time they were real to me.
I know nobody really cares, but heck I wanted to make an update and maybe talk to others who also have this problem. I doubt anybody here does though.
When I was 7 I had a traumatic experience when I was home alone, it's nothing serious like rape or anything like that though. I wrote about it in my previous thread..which is pretty funny to read:
http://www.virtualteen.org/forums/showthread.php?t=65828
So, yeah, my autophobia was pretty bad. The way I overcame it? Well, I became an atheist in my late 16s thanks to the internet. It took time and mental healing, and some days I still have small anxiety about things like ghosts, but it's very rare for this to happen and it doesn't affect my life anymore at all. I can actually lay in my bed in complete darkness and sleep now, it's liberating. When I had autophobia my heart would be beating out of anxiety while I was trying to sleep. Every noise I heard scared me immensely and the lights were always on. I prayed hard every night and read the bible to ask my god to please help me. It was mental torture to try to sleep, and sometimes I heard or saw things. Of course now I know all this was just paranoia and my scumbag brain making delusions, but at the time they were real to me.
I know nobody really cares, but heck I wanted to make an update and maybe talk to others who also have this problem. I doubt anybody here does though.