I wish it would end

[Blood_Thorn]

I want to end it all, but the problem is I made a mutual agreement with a friend that neither of us would do it, and I wish I hadn't promised, but now I have I can't break it. I don't to leave my friend alone, else they might do it too, and they deserve a good life. I just wish so much it would end. I don't know what to do...

[Abyssal Echo]

I understand how you feel I made the same agreement with a friend and sometimes wish I didn't. We both made the no suicide pledge here on VT too. I feel the same way a promise is a promise and I wont break it.
Are you into sports or have a hobby that you could get into to redirect you're thoughts ?

[Gigablue]

You need professional help. You can try doing something to distract yourself in the short term, but that won't make you better. You need to talk to your doctor and get a referral to a mental health professional.

[Katiya]

Well the good news is the pledge is working!

Bad news is you feel like shit. Find someone to talk to and maybe take meds if its real bad. I'm sure you already know that though.

Best thing is to find something in life that makes you happy and focus on that! Even if its just looking at nice pictures and imagining what it would be like to climb inside that picture lol

[Blood_Thorn]

I understand how you feel I made the same agreement with a friend and sometimes wish I didn't. We both made the no suicide pledge here on VT too. I feel the same way a promise is a promise and I wont break it.
Are you into sports or have a hobby that you could get into to redirect you're thoughts ?

I don't play any sports really, and I have very few hobbies because of school. But those few I do have aren't really that enjoyable anymore, and after I stop whatever it is, everything just goes to shit again.

You need professional help. You can try doing something to distract yourself in the short term, but that won't make you better. You need to talk to your doctor and get a referral to a mental health professional.

I don't know, is it really worth going to see a professional..?

Well the good news is the pledge is working!

Bad news is you feel like shit. Find someone to talk to and maybe take meds if its real bad. I'm sure you already know that though.

Best thing is to find something in life that makes you happy and focus on that! Even if its just looking at nice pictures and imagining what it would be like to climb inside that picture lol

It is hard to find anyone to talk to, because the only person I confided in, freaked out when I told them I cut, and so I couldn't really confide anything else in them...
Would medication actually work though?

Nothing really these days seems to make me happy, a few things take my mind away from it all for the duration, but that's it they don't procure any real form of happiness..

[Gigablue]

I don't know, is it really worth going to see a professional..?

Absolutely. Severe depression is a life threatening illness. If you are having suicidal thoughts, you need medical help as soon as possible.

I know in my case, professional help was incredible useful. I was at a similar point to where you are now. The only thing keeping me from committing suicide was that I didn't have enough energy left. Medication and therapy fixed me, and right now I'm very happy with my life.

You need help. Life doesn't have to be miserable. Recovery on your own is much harder than recovery with professional help.

[satarra3180]

Please please please keep that pledge with your friend. And yes, its very worth going to see a professional. We all need someone to talk to who will be nonjudgemental...its perfectly normal for that someone to be a professional.

[Barneytinsen]

dont do it you will regret life . we love you i love you i can make love to you if you want :(

[The Trendy Wolf]

I want to end it all, but the problem is I made a mutual agreement with a friend that neither of us would do it, and I wish I hadn't promised, but now I have I can't break it. I don't to leave my friend alone, else they might do it too, and they deserve a good life. I just wish so much it would end. I don't know what to do...

Everybody deserves a good life, no matter what. You say that you want your friend to live a good life, but you haven't considered that they might feel the same for you? The point is that there's happiness and love for everyone, in any shape or form, and you just need to find it. It's out there, somewhere, waiting for you to find it, something in the living world that you will want to live for.

I feel for you. I don't want you to die. I wish for everyone to live a full life, unhindered by overwhelmingly sad emotions.

Have a wonderful day :D

[Katiya]

I don't play any sports really, and I have very few hobbies because of school. But those few I do have aren't really that enjoyable anymore, and after I stop whatever it is, everything just goes to shit again.



I don't know, is it really worth going to see a professional..?



It is hard to find anyone to talk to, because the only person I confided in, freaked out when I told them I cut, and so I couldn't really confide anything else in them...
Would medication actually work though?

Nothing really these days seems to make me happy, a few things take my mind away from it all for the duration, but that's it they don't procure any real form of happiness..


Yes its worth seeing a professional and meds can work well. Some people have great luck so you can always try getting some from your PCP. Try a few tho bc it takes the right med and everyone is dif.

[Fanta_Lover44]

I want to end it all, but the problem is I made a mutual agreement with a friend that neither of us would do it, and I wish I hadn't promised, but now I have I can't break it. I don't to leave my friend alone, else they might do it too, and they deserve a good life. I just wish so much it would end. I don't know what to do...

Hey, I made the same promise to two people and sometimes I really regret it. They care for you so that's good. I wanted to do it. But I had no bright side. I just created one and put my problems behind me and im not aloud to think about them otherwise i'll end wanting to end it all...

I'm here if you just need someone to chat to, I wont judge you.

[Dark Unicorn]

Best thing is to find something in life that makes you happy and focus on that! Even if its just looking at nice pictures and imagining what it would be like to climb inside that picture lol
To be honest with you I don't think that's the best idea.Very well meaning, and thank you so much for caring but
I have tried that plenty of times and I end up more depressed that I'm stuck in this crappy life and not what I dream of in my head.Maybe it'll work but I don't know.For Runblade's sake I hope it does.

[Katiya]

To be honest with you I don't think that's the best idea.Very well meaning, and thank you so much for caring but
I have tried that plenty of times and I end up more depressed that I'm stuck in this crappy life and not what I dream of in my head.Maybe it'll work but I don't know.For Runblade's sake I hope it does.

Well of course everyone is different.

However I don't mean a fantasy world in your head. I ment actually find something you want to do and do it. Not just dream about something.

[Blood_Thorn]

How would I be able to get professional help without my parents finding out? Because they would freak out if they knew...
It is just that, everything seems to have lost its appeal, nothing seems fun or happy, and whenever I go to do something I just end up lying on my bed in the dark staring at the ceiling. Because there was no appeal in whatever I was going to do, no reason to do it...