Seeking Help

[JayFreeze]

This is just a rant so I can close my eyes and type everything out that I am feeling so I can feel better not only about myself, but to get some advice I guess? Ok well here goes nothing: There's this girl that I think really likes me in my computer science class, but I have never paid any attention to her because I am scared that if I start to like her I will get laughed at. Maybe fear itself is stopping me from being in a relationship. Its been almost 3 months and I am still single. I liked this girl in my 5th hour class, that was really sweet and she made me feel happy, but yet of course she didn't like me back. Either because I am ugly or I am fat, which both are true. People say I am not fat but I disagree. I think I am fat, and I have started exercising daily doing 3 sets of exercises for about 20 minutes a day. I have recently found out that this guy use to be bi in 8th grade and I have really started to like him. I don't know why I have started to like him but I am falling head over heels for him. He tells me he is straight and I am trying so hard to not become an annoying pile of crap to him, we have spent in the past day or 2 like 3 hours on the phone. He has a girlfriend and he tells me that he doesn't want to hurt me so I guess he only talks to me so I don't go off cutting or something but regardless I am just scared that I am just wrecking everything up. A few people know I like him and its just ugh. I have had depression for awhile and I'm not sure what to do. My life is one giant joke for everyone to laugh at because I am just a joke. I can never trust anyone with my secrets because they always get told, and I am just so scared about everything and I think about other people before I think of myself, and when I do think of myself its just bad things because I don't like the way I look. I have had trouble eating and I have been sleeping more the past few days and everything is just blowing up in my face. I just wish for once, if I were to like someone (Which is fairly rare, if I truly like them and its not a crush) I would actually get the chance without everything slapping me back. That is my issue with school related stuff, and my grades are A/B + 1 C and I am having trouble concentrating with this boy on my mind. I am bi yes. I have tried internet dating, it lasted almost a month and then she told me that she wanted to date someone in real life, she broke up with me, and went out with another guy that night. I was crushed. That's part of the reason I haven't tried dating again. I just wish everything was easier. I enjoy making my own games and I am currently working on my newest project (**REMOVED** if you really want to see it) but.. I am just so upset lately and I just need someone to talk to you and just someone to be here.. So if anyone would like to be that person feel free to KIK me @ **REMOVED**

One more thing; Don't try to KIK me for nudes or anything because I am not like that. I really hate when I read a post of someone saying nudes and if you send people nudes, then you have less respect for yourself then I have for myself.

[PinkFloyd]

This is just a rant so I can close my eyes and type everything out that I am feeling so I can feel better not only about myself, but to get some advice I guess? Ok well here goes nothing: There's this girl that I think really likes me in my computer science class, but I have never paid any attention to her because I am scared that if I start to like her I will get laughed at. Maybe fear itself is stopping me from being in a relationship. Its been almost 3 months and I am still single. I liked this girl in my 5th hour class, that was really sweet and she made me feel happy, but yet of course she didn't like me back. Either because I am ugly or I am fat, which both are true. People say I am not fat but I disagree. I think I am fat, and I have started exercising daily doing 3 sets of exercises for about 20 minutes a day. I have recently found out that this guy use to be bi in 8th grade and I have really started to like him. I don't know why I have started to like him but I am falling head over heels for him. He tells me he is straight and I am trying so hard to not become an annoying pile of crap to him, we have spent in the past day or 2 like 3 hours on the phone. He has a girlfriend and he tells me that he doesn't want to hurt me so I guess he only talks to me so I don't go off cutting or something but regardless I am just scared that I am just wrecking everything up. A few people know I like him and its just ugh. I have had depression for awhile and I'm not sure what to do. My life is one giant joke for everyone to laugh at because I am just a joke. I can never trust anyone with my secrets because they always get told, and I am just so scared about everything and I think about other people before I think of myself, and when I do think of myself its just bad things because I don't like the way I look. I have had trouble eating and I have been sleeping more the past few days and everything is just blowing up in my face. I just wish for once, if I were to like someone (Which is fairly rare, if I truly like them and its not a crush) I would actually get the chance without everything slapping me back. That is my issue with school related stuff, and my grades are A/B + 1 C and I am having trouble concentrating with this boy on my mind. I am bi yes. I have tried internet dating, it lasted almost a month and then she told me that she wanted to date someone in real life, she broke up with me, and went out with another guy that night. I was crushed. That's part of the reason I haven't tried dating again. I just wish everything was easier. I enjoy making my own games and I am currently working on my newest project (freeze-hotel.com if you really want to see it) but.. I am just so upset lately and I just need someone to talk to you and just someone to be here.. So if anyone would like to be that person feel free to KIK me @ JayEcho2013

One more thing; Don't try to KIK me for nudes or anything because I am not like that. I really hate when I read a post of someone saying nudes and if you send people nudes, then you have less respect for yourself then I have for myself.

Hey, man. I'm sorry you're down. My advice is to just look at things more positively. In all honesty, you're not ugly. I know that even though I haven't seen you. It may sound like a clichéd pile of crap, but I strongly believe that everyone's beautiful in their own way. If you want to message me, feel free.

PS: Take the KIK and website out of your thread. It's not like you're hurting anyone, but it is the rules. I don't want you to get a warning.

Again, do not hesitate to message me if you want. :)

[Seemyheart]

All I can really say is that it gets better, life may seem like it's crashing down all around you, but it gets better. it really does! you'll find that person who likes you for who you are, flaws, dreams, hopes, fears, and all, and that day will be amazingly beautiful.. and when that day comes, all of this will seem less overwhelming. chin up:)
Feel free to message me, I'd be happy to talk:)

[JayFreeze]

It's getting worse. I feel like hes playing with my emotions, last night he told me he liked me and he thought he was bi but turns out he was just "horny" and now he is telling me to move on, and I think I might have fallen in love.

[Dark Unicorn]

It's getting worse. I feel like hes playing with my emotions, last night he told me he liked me and he thought he was bi but turns out he was just "horny" and now he is telling me to move on, and I think I might have fallen in love.

Oh gosh Jay I more than feel for you.All I can say is I know it's insanely difficult to move on when you have really fallen for a person but I reckon this guy is bad news.I feel like you deserve more than that because you seem like such a lovely person.Either this guy is confused or he's just messing with you.I say,try and concentrate on other things.Feel free to message me if you feel like it.