Relapse?

[itcouldbeworse]

I just feel like I need to start cutting again..

[Katiya]

Try not too. I gave up on it I guess BC I thought I deserved the pain or lack there of and cutting was a reward. I now only do it when iI'm supper mad sense I can't go throwing things at people lol.

I'm not sure how I stop like I do but I guess its BC I've never been addicted to anything. Even food. I can just stop eating and start eating at a whim. Its been very easy for me to diet, I just don't feel the need for the foods I like.

Its not self control, BC I do a lot of stupid stuff on reaction. Control is holding back. I don't have to hold back I just well, stop.

I think its a knowing, you just know you have the ultimate power over your life. Try (this sounds old hat) meditation, but not what your thinking. When you have down time just brain wash your self that you don't need it, you don't need anything, you can do as you so chose. Work on knowing you don't need an addiction, you don't need cutting. You dont need anyone to twll you what to do, you can decide for your self. You need nothing untill you decide your self that you do.
Kind of a self empowerment of your mind over your body.

Even boring class time think about it. Your just too good for needing it :p worth a shot!