Joseph69
November 17th, 2013, 09:08 PM
Hi,
I left school in June (this year) because compulsory education only lasts until we're 17 here. All of my friends then went on to college/sixth form but I just couldn't. I felt like school had 'trapped' me because I'd spent so long there.
For the past few months I've spent quite a lot of time on my own and I haven't even spoken to any of my friends since I left school. Even though I absolutely hated school for a whole bunch of reasons, I really miss it.
School gave me something to hate; a distraction. I had loads of great (but missed) opportunities. Now it's gone I'm starting to hate myself more and more (you'd probably hate me too if I told you why, so I won't).
I feel like there's a whole bunch of things seriously wrong with me and I should see a psychiatrist ASAP, but I just can't do it. I desperately need to see one but I'm just absolutely terrified about telling my parents. Even if I started seeing one without telling my parents, they'd be suspicious because normally I never leave the house.
I'm starting to get paranoid and depressed, my head is a mess and I just hate everything at the moment.
Somehow I'm hiding it really well so my parents think everything is fine, I don't even want to hide it; I want help.
I really don't know what to do. Any advice?
I left school in June (this year) because compulsory education only lasts until we're 17 here. All of my friends then went on to college/sixth form but I just couldn't. I felt like school had 'trapped' me because I'd spent so long there.
For the past few months I've spent quite a lot of time on my own and I haven't even spoken to any of my friends since I left school. Even though I absolutely hated school for a whole bunch of reasons, I really miss it.
School gave me something to hate; a distraction. I had loads of great (but missed) opportunities. Now it's gone I'm starting to hate myself more and more (you'd probably hate me too if I told you why, so I won't).
I feel like there's a whole bunch of things seriously wrong with me and I should see a psychiatrist ASAP, but I just can't do it. I desperately need to see one but I'm just absolutely terrified about telling my parents. Even if I started seeing one without telling my parents, they'd be suspicious because normally I never leave the house.
I'm starting to get paranoid and depressed, my head is a mess and I just hate everything at the moment.
Somehow I'm hiding it really well so my parents think everything is fine, I don't even want to hide it; I want help.
I really don't know what to do. Any advice?