Bad Day.

[Zephyr]

I started having a manic episode in the middle of fourth period and I start shaking uncontrolably and grasping onto my head tightly to try and stay in control. As soon as the bell rang, I decided to hightail it home before it got any worse. Well, I'm driving home and the next thing I remember was snapping out of a manic blackout, and my car was hurling towards a truck on the road that was slowing down to turn, and me in my little tin bucket going 70 mph. I miss that truck by an inch or two by swerving into the next lane and I missed an oncoming car by about a foot or so. It's not a good day.

It doesn't help either that my so-called best friend keeps on blowing me off repetedly when we're supposed to do something or go somewhere just so she can go to a parties with her 'new-bestie'.

I'm going to go hit something now. Ta-ta.

[thesphinx]

Sounds like you shouldn't drive when having an episode! Sorry you're having a bad day.
Not quite sure what else to say but :hug:

[goin to work]

next time u have an episode don't drive

[Kaleidoscope Eyes]

I'm so sorry that happened to you, Steph (may I call you Steph?). :( I've never had a manic episode quite that bad, but I know how much that sort of thing can really suck. I hope you feel better, and that this episode doesn't linger any longer than it has to. :)

[byee]

I'm not sure this was a manic episode, but I have to agree with our boss, Mike, on this one> When you're feeling like this, you might do well to show good judgement by not getting behind the wheel! You could hurt yourself, and other people, too!

Talk with your shrink about this.

[Zephyr]

When I get this way, I cannot control my actions and I don't remember a thing.
I don't go to shrinks because they never help me in the way that I need help.

[Kaleidoscope Eyes]

I'm not sure this was a manic episode, but I have to agree with our boss, Mike, on this one> When you're feeling like this, you might do well to show good judgement by not getting behind the wheel! You could hurt yourself, and other people, too!

Sam, during a manic episode you are invincible,and you often don't think anything is wrong with you once you get into the full swing of it. You think nothing can hurt you and the world is on your side (you may even think you have superhuman abilities), which can cause risky and uncharacteristic behavior. It's not Steph's fault at all that she had a problem, she was just trying to get out of the situation before things got worse, which unfortunately they did.

Steph, you say they don't offer the help you need. What kind of help do you think you need, and why aren't they offering it?

[Zephyr]

I need an actual friend who knows how to deal with me when I get manic. My friend Tim and my ex Sam knew how to do that, but both graduated and moved far away for college.

I've been in and out of therapy for almost 9 years now and here is what I can tell you: I'm not a talker when it comes to therapy. I just flat out hate being there, even if I do like the therapist because talking gets me nowhere in therapy because they all say the same things and try the same formulas, advice, approaches, techniques and ideas that don't work for me. What I need isn't to be cooped up talking and listening. I'm not a conventional person, I thrive and I do my best when it's done my way.

[Zephyr]

i get the best advice from real people, not somebody who is paid to be there.

[Kaleidoscope Eyes]

Alright, that's understandable. I've been seeing my shrink for two years now, so she's sort of like my friend, I think that's why I can talk to her about things. The first shrink I went to was a mess, it was a month of me sitting and staring out the window, I didn't like her. And the second one I saw, was crazier than I was. So I can understand not wanting to see a shrink.

I know I'm not like one of your bestest buddies or anything, but if you ever feel like talking to a sort of stranger, I'm here.

I hope you don't have bad days like this too often, it sounds like they can be rather debilitating for you.

[Zephyr]

Jessi, you are the bomb-diggity = )

[Kaleidoscope Eyes]

Jessi, you are the bomb-diggity = )

:biggrin:

Thank you

[Zephyr]

Much better day today,
No random cycling = )

Got to take out some agression by having my friend Chris teach me how to play racket ball. I make it look like interpretive dance, lol. Got a good workout while I was at it and I'm using muscles that I haven't used in a while.

[Jekyll]

ok well its good to know you feeling better and btw i agree with you i hate shrinks they all ask the same questions and tell you the same stuff and one day i might parrot it back to them before they tell me it. i mean my current shrink seems to look down her nose at me and ive walked out of her sesions almost every time she annoys me so much. i was assigned her by college and well meh enough about me. you need to find someone who can help you control your episodes. i mean someone you really trust and someone who knows what there doing.

[Zephyr]

Oooooooold.
[mine]

~LoCkEd~