Jalinta
November 7th, 2013, 03:06 AM
So one of my best friends recently told me she's a lesbian, and I'm completely cool with it - I have nothing against it and it doesn't change who she is. However, since I found out, I don't know I'm just confused about the whole thing - I thought at one stage I'd dreamt it and that it wasn't true, but I'm sure it is.
But anyway, since she told me I've been almost jealous in a way of other people she's friends with - other girls really. This other friend of mine (we'll call her 'Beth') in particular she's pretty close with, and like today for example she was really tired and she'd rest her head on Beth's shoulder and get really close to her and stuff, but lately she's been almost scared to make contact with me. Like we haven't hugged in ages and like if our arms or legs touch or something she'll move away a bit..
I don't really know where this is going, but I guess I'm kind of jealous of 'Beth' in a way, and like I dunno really, upset maybe?? I'm not sure exactly what the feeling is.. :/ But I guess I am jealous and scared of losing her maybe, and I kind of just want her to myself. Is it weird to feel like this? And like, I think I'm bi so I don't know if it's a jealousy thing from that perspective or if I'm just scared of losing her to someone else purely from a friendship thing :/
I guess I just wanna know if it's normal to be like this about the whole situation, and how I can just try to feel normal about everything again. We're still close, we just don't physically touch or anything as much which I miss so yeah.. Sorry for the rant :S
But anyway, since she told me I've been almost jealous in a way of other people she's friends with - other girls really. This other friend of mine (we'll call her 'Beth') in particular she's pretty close with, and like today for example she was really tired and she'd rest her head on Beth's shoulder and get really close to her and stuff, but lately she's been almost scared to make contact with me. Like we haven't hugged in ages and like if our arms or legs touch or something she'll move away a bit..
I don't really know where this is going, but I guess I'm kind of jealous of 'Beth' in a way, and like I dunno really, upset maybe?? I'm not sure exactly what the feeling is.. :/ But I guess I am jealous and scared of losing her maybe, and I kind of just want her to myself. Is it weird to feel like this? And like, I think I'm bi so I don't know if it's a jealousy thing from that perspective or if I'm just scared of losing her to someone else purely from a friendship thing :/
I guess I just wanna know if it's normal to be like this about the whole situation, and how I can just try to feel normal about everything again. We're still close, we just don't physically touch or anything as much which I miss so yeah.. Sorry for the rant :S