Two Steps From Love
November 3rd, 2013, 10:31 PM
4 years ago I was in fifth grade. I was incredibly nerdy but was pretty well liked in my class. After sitting with this girl (We'll call her Rose) for about a month and becoming sorta friends, I fell in love with her. She was just so kind and beautiful. I decided that in order for her to be mine I had to show her how romantic I was. So I wrote her a love letter with the support of some of her friends. After I was done I left it on her desk while she was away. I don't remember her exact reaction but I know it wasn't negative :wub:. Afterwards I worked up my courage and did...absolutely nothing. For three months. No talking to her or even acknowledging her existence. Slick :cool:
Valentine's Day rolls along and I decide that I have not embarrassed me and Rose enough. I go to the store and buy a Snoopy doll and some chocolates. I leave it on her desk and the next day I prepare to do another 3 months of awkward nothingness when -gasp- one of her friends returns my gifts! "Sorry". My poor wittle heart. I go through the day all depressed. Art class rolls by though and she sits right in front of me (assigned seats). My friend somehow got the snoopy doll and is telling Rose to take it. She declines over and over again but he persists. I snap and take it from him. Then I stuff it in the trash. Rose gasps and we obviously never ever ever speak to each other again. I move away next year and eventually get over Rose.
Freshman year. I am walking with my friend to class and we are discussing our most embarrassing moments. After telling him the obvious he says that there is a Rose in his Spanish class. After four years I hold no interest in her so I just tell him "cool". One night though I had a dream...
Rose was my girlfriend and we were walking through the halls holding hands. A pretty tiny, insignificant dream right? Well let's just say it made me jump out of bed on a Monday with a massive smile on my face. I was in love...again. When I go to school though the realization that Rose and I share no classes hits me. I decide to look at each of the 2500 students that I walk by everyday and find Rose. After much searching I find her. You see if I get out of Computers at just the right time, not too fast not too slow, then in the hallway I can see her for half a second before a herd of students push me forward. My new favorite time of the day.
Here is where the trouble really begins...
I decide one day to Facebook search her and after staring at her pictures I decide to check out her interests. I came in expecting Bieber, 1D, maybe some Hunger Games if I was lucky. NEIN! Beatles, The Fray, Gorillaz, Coldplay, etc. Essentially all my favorite bands. She was also an artist like me. This is when I start to really fall in love. I dream of her every night, I think of her every minute. I can not even think of having typical 14 year old sexual fantasies with her like I did my other crushes. All I dream is for her to be with me.
This is where I ask for your help. How in the heck do I get her to even be friends with me? I mean come on, that is some really awkward history. I was thinking of just sending her a Facebook request (30 mutual friends), but I don't know it just seems stalkerish. There is no other way for me to talk to her though. The hallway event, while absolutely a godsend, takes place in THE busiest hallway in the school. I would be surprised if I could even get the H out of Hi out of my mouth before I get run over by 12th graders.
What really scares me is that if I wait until next year there will be only a small chance of us sharing classes. If I have to wait another year to be with her I will go insane :(
Valentine's Day rolls along and I decide that I have not embarrassed me and Rose enough. I go to the store and buy a Snoopy doll and some chocolates. I leave it on her desk and the next day I prepare to do another 3 months of awkward nothingness when -gasp- one of her friends returns my gifts! "Sorry". My poor wittle heart. I go through the day all depressed. Art class rolls by though and she sits right in front of me (assigned seats). My friend somehow got the snoopy doll and is telling Rose to take it. She declines over and over again but he persists. I snap and take it from him. Then I stuff it in the trash. Rose gasps and we obviously never ever ever speak to each other again. I move away next year and eventually get over Rose.
Freshman year. I am walking with my friend to class and we are discussing our most embarrassing moments. After telling him the obvious he says that there is a Rose in his Spanish class. After four years I hold no interest in her so I just tell him "cool". One night though I had a dream...
Rose was my girlfriend and we were walking through the halls holding hands. A pretty tiny, insignificant dream right? Well let's just say it made me jump out of bed on a Monday with a massive smile on my face. I was in love...again. When I go to school though the realization that Rose and I share no classes hits me. I decide to look at each of the 2500 students that I walk by everyday and find Rose. After much searching I find her. You see if I get out of Computers at just the right time, not too fast not too slow, then in the hallway I can see her for half a second before a herd of students push me forward. My new favorite time of the day.
Here is where the trouble really begins...
I decide one day to Facebook search her and after staring at her pictures I decide to check out her interests. I came in expecting Bieber, 1D, maybe some Hunger Games if I was lucky. NEIN! Beatles, The Fray, Gorillaz, Coldplay, etc. Essentially all my favorite bands. She was also an artist like me. This is when I start to really fall in love. I dream of her every night, I think of her every minute. I can not even think of having typical 14 year old sexual fantasies with her like I did my other crushes. All I dream is for her to be with me.
This is where I ask for your help. How in the heck do I get her to even be friends with me? I mean come on, that is some really awkward history. I was thinking of just sending her a Facebook request (30 mutual friends), but I don't know it just seems stalkerish. There is no other way for me to talk to her though. The hallway event, while absolutely a godsend, takes place in THE busiest hallway in the school. I would be surprised if I could even get the H out of Hi out of my mouth before I get run over by 12th graders.
What really scares me is that if I wait until next year there will be only a small chance of us sharing classes. If I have to wait another year to be with her I will go insane :(