Therapy too triggering.

[1_21Guns]

So my first assessment appointment was last week and I went to it keeping an open mind because I haven't liked therapy before but maybe this time would be different. Because it was my assessment she just wanted to get a basic background of what'd happened to me and what was wrong currently, otherwise went down as 50 minutes of triggering yourself to fuck. I didn't really feel that triggered until I went to sleep that night. I had a nightmare about my dad which left me in an utterly awful mood and frame of mind all day, I pretty much felt the worst I'd felt lately before the therapy. Then the night after which I fortunately spent with my boyfriend which is always of some comfort to me I had a bad dream about the lack of work I've done. I'm now at a point where I don't remember my dreams but the sleep is terribly restless. I wake up feeling like I haven't slept for a week every single day. I'm trying my best to just ride it out but I really don't know how much longer I can try with this it's draining the energy I already barely have. I have another appointment tomorrow which is another assessment but this time for cognitive behavioral therapy, I'm hoping this one isn't so awful because at the moment I really can't cope with it. I'm just dreading going.. I hate it so much.

[Tarannosaurus]

Was your previous therapy that triggering?

[1_21Guns]

Was your previous therapy that triggering?

Not that I remember, but I was still in a particularly bad place at the time so it was hard to tell what was triggering me, myself/my life at the time or the therapy. This time round it was trying to stop myself falling down into a terrible place again but I just feel like I'm going further and further down and this is pushing me not helping me.

[Mynick]

I don't think she will ask you to do this kind of thing again, at least all at once.
I guess she asked you this because she needs the info to start the therapy, i have no idea how it's going to be but, as i said before i don't think you will need to get through that again.
Good luck and gives us an update tomorrow :hug:

[Tarannosaurus]

I've never gone to therapy so my advice wouldn't be that helpful, but I think you should tell them that their methods aren't helping. You deserve the chance to get better. If you go to them for a while and they're still not helping/ making it worse you should try and see someone else, because it might be the person instead of the actual therapy. And as Mynick said, tell us how the next one goes :)

[1_21Guns]

Thank you guys :hug3:

[1_21Guns]

I don't think she will ask you to do this kind of thing again, at least all at once.
I guess she asked you this because she needs the info to start the therapy, i have no idea how it's going to be but, as i said before i don't think you will need to get through that again.
Good luck and gives us an update tomorrow :hug:

I've never gone to therapy so my advice wouldn't be that helpful, but I think you should tell them that their methods aren't helping. You deserve the chance to get better. If you go to them for a while and they're still not helping/ making it worse you should try and see someone else, because it might be the person instead of the actual therapy. And as Mynick said, tell us how the next one goes :)

I was basically only in there 20 minutes in the end, we just talked about how I was feeling a little worse since the last one which she said is completely normal (which I knew anyway). As it was just a second assessment appointment I'm not actually having therapy yet I'm just on yet another waiting list for cognitive behavioral therapy, so once I'm at the top of that my proper therapy will start.

[Mynick]

I was basically only in there 20 minutes in the end, we just talked about how I was feeling a little worse since the last one which she said is completely normal (which I knew anyway). As it was just a second assessment appointment I'm not actually having therapy yet I'm just on yet another waiting list for cognitive behavioral therapy, so once I'm at the top of that my proper therapy will start.
So you had to go through all of that to find out that you need to wait now? Sounds stupid, sure they need the info but they could have done it when you were closer to the top of that list.

[Tarannosaurus]

I was basically only in there 20 minutes in the end, we just talked about how I was feeling a little worse since the last one which she said is completely normal (which I knew anyway). As it was just a second assessment appointment I'm not actually having therapy yet I'm just on yet another waiting list for cognitive behavioral therapy, so once I'm at the top of that my proper therapy will start.

Was the second assessment a bit better than the first?

[1_21Guns]

So you had to go through all of that to find out that you need to wait now? Sounds stupid, sure they need the info but they could have done it when you were closer to the top of that list.

The problem was my doctor put me in for the wrong thing, they thought I'd only need brief counselling but b'cos of my problems I need something else

Was the second assessment a bit better than the first?

Wasn't much different really, I didn't have to talk about every triggering thing on the planet this time though which is always a bonus :P

[Tarannosaurus]

Wasn't much different really, I didn't have to talk about every triggering thing on the planet this time though which is always a bonus :P

Yes I can see how that would be a bonus :P Good luck with the actual therapy when you start it :) :hug:

[ksdnfkfr]

Things actually got worse for me at the start of my
therapy before they started to get better.
It was terribly rigorous the first session.
They kind of screwed up some in the beginning too.
But in the long run it went well and I've been
loads better. 80 days since last self harm.