Ignoring the only boy i really like, right or wrong? [Archive]

Derryck

October 31st, 2013, 02:13 PM

Hey! Sorry for the long post but i have this big big problem. a Year ago a new student came to my class. This boy. At first i didn't like him really but in time i started to like him very much, but we didn't talk to eachother. At the beginning of the summer he started to talk to me and we talked almost every day of the summer on the internet. We could talk about anything, like bestfriends. I really really started to like him, i have NEVER and yes never have had this feeling for any boy. Every word he says to me every thing he does , it affects me in any way. I think about him all the time and it is ruining my life. I even told him what i feel but he just said that he likes that and maybe he feels even a littlebit the same but he doesn't say anything just makes jokes and some times touches me, thats it. I really wish that i didn't like him but i just can't do anything about it.
So because of that my heart is always broken and i can't find anybody who i'd date or like or anything like that.
I had a lot of thinking and i made a decision to ignore him. I just said to him that it would be better if we talked less and now we haven't talked a single word in 5 days. I hope that in time i will think less about him and find some boy who could bring love to my life. But right now it is killing me, not to talk to him it is awful. Did i do the right thing, ignoring him or should i apologize and start to talk to him again or what should i do? i just want to be happy is that really so hard?

How is it ruining your life?

Derryck

October 31st, 2013, 02:33 PM

It is ruining because, my grades are going down because my mind is always on him, my heart is 90% of the time broken, my mood depends on him,(most of the time confused and sad) because of him it is so freaking hard to let any other boy in to my life and my friends don't understand what's wrong with me and now they are ignoring and talking less to me..

This topic intrigues me. I will be open to talk more about this via vm. Is that ok with you? :)